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Hope it goes ok
Hi, sorry for the delay. The appointment went well and I have since received a letter from the Dr. detailing our conversation. The Dr. was lovely and really seemed to care. We are keeping me on the same meds for now. My sleep has settled down thankfully. I am still feeling anxious about things but then I am still getting used to working and balancing everything around it.
My youngest goes skiing with the school tomorrow morning. I am feeling ok about it.
On Monday Pen and I are going away for a night to a farm air b & b. It will be lovely to get away from it all (nod) x
That all sounds really positive and that things are working in a good way....
Hope your youngest has fun skiing and that you and Pen have a lovely time away.
Thanks Suzi. I'm having a recharge day today (inlove) Catching up on TV and doing some Zentangle.
What’s zentangle??
It is basically doodling/pattern drawing. Google it - warning, it is very addictive! x
I love the look of zentangle, I'm not nearly able to do so due to no artistic flare!
Oh dear...I am struggling. I went to see the GP for a review this morning. He is a lovely guy & has been the one I have seen regularly over the last 5 years or so. I said I was sorry for everything and he said that I didn’t need to be.
We are having a night away this evening. P packed everything because I have very little energy atm. I worked a late shift on Saturday night and an early on Sunday which made me very tired (it is the nature of the shift pattern that this happens)
I am going to try and relax this evening with some drawing and painting. I know it always passes but today seems a struggle.
Sweetheart you seem to be struggling more since you've taken this job... Are you well enough to be working right now?
What did your doctor say?
Hi ladies.
We had an enjoyable evening last night (I felt a bit calmer) The doctor was lovely, as always, meds to stay the same for now.
I hear what you are saying about the job Suzi but I need to prove it to myself that I can earn money in readyness for when my maintenance stops. My plan is to save as much as possible before then. The job is very demanding physically but I am determined to give it a really good shot.xx
I get what you’re saying about money but I’ll just say what I told my eldest daughter the other day (when her boyfriend was worried about his potential short term drop in income). When you’re in a committed relationship, and living together, it shouldn’t be about ‘your’ money and ‘their’ money - you’re in this together
I completely agree with Paula... I'd also ask if it's worth your mental health as you haven't seemed stable since you started it lovely....
I agree wholeheartedly with what Paula and Suzi have said, in days gone by in a relationship it was my money and your money, thankfully things have changed and it is our money it's a partnership. Maybe you need a less demanding job, just a thought.
Thank you for your comments. It is wonderful to be cared about. I have a probation period at work of 12 weeks and I must make it as far as that, if not beyond. The winter will be over then and my energy levels tend to go up. In the meantime I will continue to chat to you all on here (sometimes I have a tendency to feel I must go quiet which I know is unnecessary) x
Lovely, why must you?
Definitely no need to go quiet lovely, talk and talk and share what's going on in your head.
You are so kind. I suppose I am always try to please all the people all the time (Although my rational brain knows that this is impossible) I just feel very low atm. I said to Pen that I wish it was possible for me to see inside my brain, to prove that the depression is really there (and I am not making this up) x
We absolutely know it’s real, and you’re not making anything up.
Hunni, what is the reason you have to work?
There are studies that show that depression creates physical changes in the brain and that brain activity is different too!
As I said before, I need to prove it to myself that I can work and also save as much as I can. When K is 18 (5 years time) my maintenance from my ex will completely stop and I have to get myself geared up for then. I know it is 5 years away but it is coming and I am a planner.
x
I understand that, but hunni, is it worth a mental health crisis? Can you work, but maybe do hours which aren't the shifts that you've had which causes you problems?
Hi, so I have been signed off from work for 2 weeks. Here we go, another breakdown :( just hate this x
I'm sorry you're feeling really bad, but being signed off will give you chance to get yourself more stable again hunni. You seem to have put a lot of pressure on yourself regarding this job and you weren't taking a stable dose of meds etc.... Hunni, don't be a stranger and don't beat yourself up about this. You've got us and we're in your corner.
Thank you Suzi, just feel so frustrated atm. I only had a couple of hours sleep last night which isn’t helping. X
I can sympathise with that, I've not been sleeping well myself...
Suzi’s absolutely right. Please don’t see this as a unstoppable road to breakdown, try to see this as an opportunity to rest and allow your body and mind to recover (panda)
Morning, thank you for your lovely comments. I slept much better last night thankfully (nod) Today, Pen and I are going to meet a friend for lunch at the Range (inlove) Could be expensive haha! I know it is very important that I don’t over do things. My ex has got the girls until Monday so I have chance to look after myself properly over the weekend.
Suzi - I am sorry you are not sleeping well. Hope things get better soon xx
I’m so glad you’re doing Things to take care of you :)
Thank you!
I'm glad you're doing what you need to do for some self care. I think it's going to be massively helpful...
Oops, did FAR too much yesterday. Today is a rest and art day (and probably a swim later) xx
Oh no! Hope you are definitely resting and pacing.... How's your mood?
I have been pacing today (nod) My mood has been really low but this evening it is a bit better. I have managed a swim today too x
Well done for pacing today and for self care of swimming. You don't have to hide away or hide what's in your head here lovely...
How are you doing?
Hello,
My mood has been soooo much better today (inlove) I even managed to make a meal ahead for tomorrow when the girls are back. It makes me realise how ill I have actually been. I am hopefully going to arrange a meeting with my manager (Tuesday?) to discuss my return to work. I am a bit scared they will be p-ed off with me but I guess people do have to get signed off for MH reasons! X
Sweetheart if you've had 1 really good day, why not allow yourself to build on it and get yourself stable before even thinking about going to work?
Hello, I have had blood tests done and they have shown low iron levels. I think I may have missed a period. Xx
Are they treating it?
At least it's not too difficult to treat in most people.... How's your mood?