Well done! Just give them time and be honest with your doctor. Some people find that the first one or two, sometimes more, aren't right for them but don't give up. It's trial and error and you will get there lovely. You've made a massive step today.
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Well done! Just give them time and be honest with your doctor. Some people find that the first one or two, sometimes more, aren't right for them but don't give up. It's trial and error and you will get there lovely. You've made a massive step today.
I've had citalopram before and it made me completely numb and emotionless, my doctor said he's had a few patients say that and sertraline has worked for them so fingers crossed! But if it doesn't work I'm not giving up, I will try something else :)
I'm so amazingly proud of you!!!!! :)
As much as I hate myself on a daily basis I also quite like myself (if that makes any sense) I guess I would call myself quirky and a lot of people don't really understand or like me because of it (which is perfectly fine because I have great friends who do get me or appreciate me even if they don't and a fiance and daughter who are both just as quirky as me). The thing is, because I've had depression for such a long time, I'm worried that the parts of myself that I like could just be part of that and once the tablets kick in it might change who I am. I was just wondering if anyone that's on anti depressants that are working have found that they've changed the person that they are in any way? I'm sorry if this is a stupid question it's just that it's been so long I'm not really sure what's me and what's depression at this point
Hey, I love quirky ;) I think we're all quirky - or as I tell my children often that they are weird, different, amazing and fantastic! Who wants to be "normal" or the same as everyone else?? Why try to be someone else, there is only 1 you and that's more than enough for you to be.
It's definitely not a stupid question at all... I can tell you how the meds have affected my husband if it helps? He's much more able to cope with the small things, the unexpected things and actually more able and willing to sit and listen, to mess about, to be creative and to go out of the house!
A notice that I read somewhere reads - Why try to fit in when you were made to stand out?
I think it's a lovely way to think about being 'slightly different'.
I think life changes us every single day. That includes any illness. I know I wouldn’t be the person I am without depression and anxiety and, actually, I’m ok with that because I’m a stronger, braver and more empathetic person.
Thanks guys, I guess I'm just a bit nervous about what the medication will do, excited at the same time though! At the moment my anxiety is slightly worse and I slept shockingly last night but I know this is just temporary and they will kick in soon
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I know I'm a very different person today to who I was before I'd had experiences that I've had and actually I'm good with that because I currently don't hate me...
I agree with what the others have said. I'm not the same person who I was before I got sick. My first stay in hospital was in 2010 and I really can't say if it was the medication or the life experiences since, that have changed me into the person I am now. I'm very grateful for everything I've been through, I think I'm much more in touch of how I'm feeling now. This has meant that I'm a lot more empathetic to those around me. I notice people more now. I also notice when people are feeling 'off' and I can start a conversation with them now.
Of course you will feel nervous that the old you seems to be gone, but the new you might be an improved you.
The past is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that's why it's called the present.
Try to live more in the now, tomorrow is promised to no one.
I guess it's just a case of waiting to see what happens, I feel like half my life is a waiting game! I'm just having a go at writing a story about L and the dog going through a magical portal, I might share it when I've done some more if I feel happy enough with it, I hope everybody is having a fabulous day
I’d love to read it! :)
I've just finished chapter two (they're only short) but it needs some tweaking, I'll put it on tomorrow at some point. Writing the story has made L go out on an actual adventure with the dog, I love it when she still acts like a child, it doesn't happen very often anymore!
That's so cool! Can't wait to read it! :)
Should hopefully be posting some of it on here later :)
Quick update: my anxiety has got worse at night so I'm still not sleeping well, it's only been a week though and I'm determined to keep going! At least I only work a couple of hours in the evening so it's not the end of the world being so tired all the time!
Definitely talk to your GP about it lovely..
I have to make an appointment soon anyway so I'll speak to him then :)
When do you need to make the appt for?
Well I saw him last Thursday and he said 2 to 4 weeks so I was going to try and make one for next Thursday
Good plan.
I slept a little better tonight, although I felt really ill at work yesterday but it only lasted an hour or so, I'm going to book the appointment later today on my way to work
That sounds like a good plan lovely..
Good to hear
The nausea seems to be pretty much gone now and I'm not quite as tired, I couldn't make an appointment because the drs was closed this afternoon for staff training so I will do it tomorrow instead
Hopefully that’s the worst of the side effects over :)
Hopefully things will now get better...
I really hope so because it has been a nightmare! Hopefully I can get that drs appointment booked for next week, last time the earliest they had was 2 weeks ago but with it being a review I'm hoping they can fit me in (they keep spots clear for stuff like that right?)
Hopefully....
Well they don't keep spots clear for stuff like that, earliest appointment I could get was September 13th, at least it's booked though :)
Exactly - you could always call on the day and ask for a phone appointment if you need it...
Definitely, I think the tablets should start kicking in soon anyway so hopefully I'll start feeling better
How are you today lovely?
Not feeling great today but that's partly due to drinking yesterday, I'm feeling really irritable like I really just want to be left alone, the fiancé's mum came round earlier and I really didn't feel like dealing with that (she's a lovely person she just asks a lot of questions which I can't handle when my head isn't in the right place) she didn't stay long though now I'm just chilling out, I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow
Give yourself some slack! Alcohol is a natural depressant, and you were out being social and probably didn't sleep as long as you should have done so don't be too hard on yourself!
^^^wss ;)
I'm having a down day today, I just feel really really low and have no get up and go, it's just taken everything I have for me to go and have a shower and brush my teeth but it's only made me feel slightly better, I want to crawl in a dark hole away from the world and just cry and sleep, I hate feeling like this but nothing seems to work to get me out of it
Sweetheart you are going to have some blips along the way lovely... Try to be kind to yourself and if you need to snuggle and watch movies, then do that!
Work was so hard to get through today, I've come home feeling a million times worse, I've managed to get the tea started (honestly sometimes I wish I was the sort of mum who just shoved chicken nuggets and chips in the oven!) and wash the pots and wipe the sides, massive achievement for me on a day like this, normally I just leave it until the morning, still don't feel any better though. I told Lena earlier that I was having a bad day, came home from work noticeable sad and thought she might offer to help out or at least ask how I am and give me a cuddle, instead I got nothing, she's just watching TV, maybe I'm expecting too much from my 11 year old but sometimes her lack of empathy worries me as her dad was a lot like that and he was a really horrible person and I really don't want her to turn out anything like him :(
Sweetie, I have 2 daughters and I promise you that lack of empathy is definitely part of her age. She’s pre teen and it’s a taster of what’s to come in the next few years, im afraid. But, from what you’ve told us, she’s a good kid and loves spending time with you so I’m sure she’s turning out just fine