Today has been crap. I should have just stayed in bed.
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Today has been crap. I should have just stayed in bed.
I'm sorry, lovely (bear)
Why love? Why was it so bad? How are you doing today?
I got up early as I had an appointment for my hair cutting except it was cancelled after we set off. Doctors was ok, he checked how I was doing with the paroxetine, he's logged my strange mood and I'm going back on the tablet that helped my alopecia. Then I was at hospital with my mum, 1 hour sat in physio since we got there stupidly early then an hours appointment. She's got allsorts to help her which knowing her, will end up in a drawer with crap excuses as to why she can't use it! Plus I had someone have a huge go at me about something that was beyond my control. So it was just stress, aggro and wanting to hide.
Today isn't much better. I'm irritable, I feel like I'm wading through treacle, my hands have flared, I'm pretty much wishing that I never woke up.
I'm not surprised you feel crap and pain has flared given yesterday. Are you resting?
I'm trying to. Had the shopping to sort out and washed the pots but not felt up to doing anything else.
Then I hope you are resting and being kind to yourself?
Please rest up hunni its been a busy time for you x
Not going to lie, I've been struggling and just not seen the point in posting more of the same. I feel like I'm treading water in treacle, it's bloody exhausting! Although it does help to be able to admit that
No shame in admitting it. You've got a lot on your plate with the med change and physical health issues, looking after your mum etc. The one thing I truly love about you is that no matter how bad things are, you always pull through.
I was going to ask where you'd gone! Where are you re the meds now? (panda)
I've been on them a week and a half now.
Stella, it's the only choice I have really.
Are you keeping any real track of your moods? What are the side effects like?
My moods are pretty flat all of the time. No real side effects but I'm getting a lot of sharp stabbing pains in my leg so I don't know if it's related.
(bear) hunni it could be related but if it continues or bothers you its worth getting it checked
Do get that checked out love. Is it only since starting the new meds?
It's only been the past week, I've been on the meds nearly 2 weeks now. Yesterday it was so bad that I woke up with my leg throbbing and couldn't get back to sleep.
Please call the doctor tomorrow ....
Jaq if you're constantly getting stabbing and throbbing pains in your leg you really need to get it checked out at the docs. (bear) (panda)
How are you today, lovely?
I agree with the other. I hope you make the appointment today. I used to get those stabbing pains and it was down to poor blood circulation. My feet had swollen up because i was not walking or exercising and the blood just accumulated in my foot because it was not circulating round my body but once i started doing a bit of exercise after a couple of days, it was fine. I would go to see your G.P.
I hope your mood is a bit better today.
Hey gorgeous! How are you doing?
I'm ok. Mood is still really flat but the urge to hurt myself isn't as strong, which is good. I missed my appointment with Mark yesterday as I slept in, my sleep pattern has been so poor just lately. I was at dentist today and have to go back in 3 weeks for 2 small fillings, not too bad considering I'm at a higher risk of cavities due to having a dry mouth. I've even managed to change the bedding.
Bugger about the missed appointments. What's up with your sleeping?
I'm getting into bed and I'm wide awake until 2/3am
Ok I'm gonna ask all the obvious questions. Are having a wind down toward bed time? No phones, tablets or tv? Have you tried mindfulness or soothing music? Spoken to the gp about going back on Mirtazapine?
No tv, usually watch videos on my tablet but it's got a filter on it that reduces blue light. Usually have earphones in and the fan on so I don't get too hot.
What about talking to the gp?
I've mentioned it but I'm due a review soon so I'll mention it again.
Right so while watching videos your mind is still active.
I find it easier to switch off while watching videos. It gives me something to concentrate on rather then the thoughts racing through my head. Just like I relax more listening to metal then soothing music.
I've never claimed to be normal!
Normal is over rated
Pfft I don't think I'd want to be "normal" ;)
Erm whats this "normal"
They do reckon if you can't sleep after 15 or 20m you should do something else like go for a short walk before trying again because just lying in bed trying to sleep isn't helpful. That doesn't work for me because of my physical problems, but maybe it will help you?
That's why I try and watch something as you can guarantee if I put something on that I want to see I will fall asleep halfway through
Dr pimple popper - strangely soothing ;)
I said want to see! Not makes me want to vomit (giggle)