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I'm on antibiotics and I should eat, but I cannot eat anything, just lemon, water and tea. But I should...
My mum is still in severe condition, but stable. The two donors will try to give blood for her these days.
I met her surgeon, he said " Sweetie, just pray and maybe she will get out from this". He is a brilliant surgeon and a kind person.
He said from his experience it's 90 % pancreas cancer, maybe tumor won't appear again, it's important her recovery now.
It was my inner feeling this time is something horrible. And all of us know that pancreas cancer even survivors don't last for long time.
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My sore hurts and feel like losing my breath, I learned out that only 8 % of patients survive the 5-year barrier on this stage.
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That makes me feel out of my mind.
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Where did you learn that statistic, hunni?
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On several medical sites.
Although it seems good it was detected at earlier phase...
Now myself I develop cancer fear including for me and fear of losing her...that drives me crazy.
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Selena stop and breathe. Sweetheart day by day.
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The good news is that I've finally seen my mom today. It was very emotional meeting. Still waiting for biopsy, but it's probably cancer.
This is the bad news already and that I'm feeling useless due to my mental problems, due that I cannot cope with anything like the others would do, because I've got frustrated and suicidal and losing any direction and hope, because I hope pains everywhere.
And the last one...my f ...boss has written something that she can leave me only for a week. Why should they attack me like wild animals? If their mother were cancer affected, would they work? And besides it's my legal leave, why should others come and go when they want?
In fact, if she fires me, she can go to hell as some translators already left her company and I'm human, not robot myself, I'm authorized translator and work in her company not for enough money in fact. I could have done google translations but I never did like others.
We're not slaves, I'm already not only feeling bad, but literally suffocating.