No need to do everything all at once lovely...
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No need to do everything all at once lovely...
Well I've showered and even the water on my arm was painful :( it's feeling quite warm to the touch at the moment so I will keep a close eye on it. Annoyingly, I'm close to kicking myself for doing it but I'd detached and didn't realise. Logically I know it wasn't my fault.
Please go and let your GP see it for themselves. It's very different to tell about it rather than see it itms?
I will consider trying to get in.
Have you tried to get an appointment?
Consider?
I'm not really seeing much point at the moment. But I've booked one for a week on weds and I will keep an eye open and if one comes available sooner I will swap it.
But in a week on Wednesday the area you've hurt won't look how it is now - can you take pictures?
Already done that! And I've cancelled my weightwise appointment on wednesday as it clashed with counselling and I think counselling will be more beneficial to me right now. I will show my counsellor. I've even cut my nails pretty short, mainly to set J's mind at rest. With how short they are now, I can't do as much damage if I get distressed.
Oh sweetheart (bear)(bear)
(bear)
I'm ok. Pretty much anyway. Had hugs off J this morning, which was good for him too as he's struggling today. I'm planning on doing some studying to keep me occupied, or tidying. Not decided yet. I just cut my nails as I saw how worried he was and this removes some of that worry.
How's the studying going?
I went for tidying instead. Will do an hour or 2 later. Strugglibg to focus again.
Can you pick and choose little tasks to focus on little by little?
I should be able to. I have a standard to maintain now! (giggle)
I have no doubt at all that you’ll keep up with that standard. ;)
Oh I do!!! Part of me thinks it was a fluke!
Fuke or no fluke, who cares? Seriously, I have every faith in you x
I'm glad someone does!
And me. I have faith in you too.
I think I'm just feeling a little overwhelmed after last week
But it's the same as everything.. Little by little and one metaphorical foot in front of the metaphorical other.. You can do this.
How are you today?
Morning, sweetie
Morning. Struggling to get going today, it's taken me 3 hours to get up and ready to face the day. Then I forgot to put my cardy on as I normally don't wear anything over my tshirt, so my anxiety went sky high when I realised my arm is visible. Covered up now but still pretty anxious!
(bear) hunni xx Have you eaten and drank something and took your meds ?
I have, only just but I have done it.
Good, xx
(bear)(bear)(bear)
Rather then try and force studying, I've showered and started watching Brittania. Have to say I'm enjoying it! Although I think I'm pretty fragile at the moment. Been on the verge of tears a few times as I couldn't stop overthinking things.
(bear) lovely. How are you feeling this morning? I think you're right not to force the studying..
Have you had something to drink? Something to eat? Taken meds?
What time's counselling?
I'm there now, appointment is in 10 minutes. Actually eaten and medicated and I will have a glass of water in my session.
Feeling a little meh today but J is picking me up :)
Well done love. Hope it goes well. Be honest. Tell them about Friday and show her your arm.
Thinking of you (bear)
(bear) hope the counselling goes well hunni x
I showed her my arm. She's not impressed that the nurse didn't notice and didn't ask to see what I'd done. So she's emailing the clinical team and letting them know that secondary mental health have refused me any help and is going to see if she can get me another set of sessions. My counsellor is awesome!!! She's also said to tell my GP what happened.
That's so good of her. I'm seriously proud that you told her and showed her! You seriously rock!
You were awesome today :)
I don't think I've done anything amazing, and she said they might say no, but as I've been with them almost a year they sometimes allow it. She said she's on annual leave for the next 3 weeks so either someone from the office will get in touch or she'll ring me when she gets back, but until she gets a definitive answer she isn't discharging me.
Sounds like you have someone at least trying to help hunni and you are amazing please accept that is how we see you at least ?