He knows I'm not great. I'm kind of shut down at the moment. Holding everyone at arms length. Isolating. I have nothing new to tell him. It's just the same over and over again. That circle that only I can break but don't seem capable of.
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He knows I'm not great. I'm kind of shut down at the moment. Holding everyone at arms length. Isolating. I have nothing new to tell him. It's just the same over and over again. That circle that only I can break but don't seem capable of.
When the time is right for you you’ll come out of it.
Is this since he's been back at work?
I wasnt very well before lockdown and I think while he was home I did improve a bit but without that support I've just collapsed a bit again. I've also been doing quite intense trauma work which has brought me down a bit.
But I think mostly it's just me and my head being stupid and lazy and not trying hard enough..... I dont even feel I want to try so yes, I'm the only one who can fix this, it's down to me and I obviously dont want to fix it enough or I would make more of an effort.
You are not stupid or lazy. And you’re not the only one responsible for dealing with this. It takes a village....... you, A, the kids, your family, friends, the church, DWD. We are all part of this and we all are here to support you to help you get better.
Stupid? Lazy? Sorry love but that's total bo((ocks! I know that you are definitely neither of those things. You really do need to be kinder to you....
How are you?
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Anything you want to talk about?