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Thanks, todays been tough. I feel so low as I've had no sleep whatsoever & that call exacerbated my depression further. Despite this, I managed to take a girl out to the pub & we had a few games of pool.
But then as she was awaiting her taxi home, I ignorantly withdrew myself to the garden instead of waiting beside her. Instead, I was sat staring at the sun, overwhelmed by this bleakness that pervades me :s. The past few days I felt "better" but today I feel so hopeless..
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I think the fact they called and asked is a positive thing - they obviously want to help you...
Why didn't you wait with the girl you went out with? Every girl likes to be waited with whilst waiting to get home....
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Because I felt tearful & was tryin to contain my emotions. On the way back from the pub she told me how she's gonna still speak to other guys or somethin. I've spent the past 2 days with her but we've only kissed & cuddled. We had our backs turned in my bed & I was wide awake the whole night 😩.
As for the employer, I'm curious how exactly they intend to support an employee with depression. I'm worried what to say exactly. I've never been suicidal but I've had it for years on a moderate level. If they equate depression with being potentially psychotic then that's completely unjustified. I'll let you know anyway how this chat goes with them tommorow.
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Why on earth would the equate depression with being potentially psychotic??? Psychosis and depression are 2 very different mental illnesses, neither of which an employer can discriminate against!
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I can't see them seeing it as potentially psychotic lovely, try not to worry x
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It actually went well & they just wanted to know If I needed any support. I told them that I've been off medication since Jan & that I'm seein a counsellor. I even asked whether other staff had disclosed their depression prior to starting & she said "oh yes, all the time!".
I also had a chat with the person who's in charge of my file & she's now recieved everythin she needs regarding references & DBS, so its finally been submitted.
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I was belittled today which is nothing new in my household. No prizes for guessing who. I was called an "f'in daft pr***" by that so-called brother of mine. I locked the back door in the house & he was angry because he expected it to be unlocked. So he came stormin back from work to shout verbal abuse at me.
All I did was lock the door as I was upstairs. He belittles me all the time & controls people. He even shouts at the dog aggressively simply for barkin. I'm seem as pathetic because of how timid I am.
Anyway I start my induction on June 18th so that'll at least get me out of the house (think)..
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Are you sure you can't talk to your Mum about what other options there are for the pair of you to sort something. He sounds so volatile and dangerous...