It’s more than I’ve done today - you never give yourself credit, lovely ......
Printable View
It’s more than I’ve done today - you never give yourself credit, lovely ......
Sounds productive.... I've done little to nothing. Maybe I should go clean
I’ve been pretty lazy today. There is so much stuff that needs to be done I should be making more of an effort to get in front of it all. I need help to organise things cos I’m not good at it. I like to keep everything close at hand so my house gets soo cluttered it’s unreal. I have too much stuff but I don’t like letting it go either.
You haven’t been lazy. Pacing is not being lazy
Oh yes, I have been lazy. Tons of stuff I couldn’t done but I just looked at it and said “nah”.
Well you inspired me to go clean the upstairs loo and wash basin...... I even gave the window a rub.
Would you say that I'd been lazy if I'd done what you've done today?
Or what if I told you I've helped load the dishwasher, done some crochet, played the piano and sat outside trying to help Marc by "positively encouraging" him...
I’d say there is a huge difference between you being a mum and wife with physical pain and me as an able bodied single woman with no dependents. Plus it’s not a competition. I know I was capably of doing more today but I actively chose not too. I’m not being hard on myself I’m just being honest.
You always hold yourself to a far higher standard than you do the rest of us. I don’t understand why but I do know you’re wrong in that. You’re not lazy, I’ve never known you to be lazy. But I do wonder if it’s more that you can stave off the dark thoughts if you’re constantly doing things?
I completely agree with Paula. I do worry why you think you have to be doing more, or that nothing you ever do is good enough.... You ARE more than good enough...
I spend most of my life either in bed or lay on the sofa watching (swear)(swear)(swear)(swear) on Netflix. I really don’t do a lot cos that would involve having a life, I’m regularly told to get one but not found any online sellers as of yet. If you saw the state of my home you would understand where I’m coming from. I don’t try to compare myself to others because we’re all different. I can only say what kind of life I wanna live and it’s not happening. Their are many reasons for that, and a lot of them are out of my control but I can look to myself for ways to improve my situation and I’m not exactly doing a great job of looking after myself and my home. That is a fact! I need to do more, I don’t have any other choice.
Then maybe set yourself achievable goals? Little by little?
That is what I’m doing! I just happened to mention that I had a bit of a lazy day today and I got told off for it. :(
But I think it's because you called it being "lazy" when it is in fact more to do with pacing.... And you aren't setting little goals, your goal is to sort the whole house all at once...
And it’s also about your perception of what you’re doing - calling yourself lazy, saying you ‘need to do more’ and that you’re ‘not doing a great job’. You’re constantly beating yourself up, which isn’t healthy.....
Ok, whatever.
(rofl) you sound like Jess !
I agree Paula, Stella sounds like a young teenager (rofl)
Mock me if it makes you feel better.
I don't think anyone's mocking you. We're all coming from a place of love and wanting to help you to see that you don't have to be perfect in your eyes to be doing really well x
You know what, I actually felt ok last night. No I didn’t get a lot done but that was ok. The fact you all pounced on me because I used the word “lazy” has only made me feel 10 times worse. Go back and read through what I said again cos you seem to have completely missed the fact that I was ok with how things turned out but got so caught up in my choice of words managed to twist everything. I know you didn’t mean to cause any upset but that’s what happened. I’ve had a Crappy morning where lying in bed is about all I can achieve and I’m just grateful to Talia for her amazing puppy cuddles.
I didn’t mean to make you feel I was mocking you, I was just having a joke but I’m sorry if you were hurt by it.
As for whether you were ok with things yesterday or not, I still stand by what I said. Saying you were lazy is putting yourself down horribly and I don’t think you should be ok saying that about yourself. If someone else said that to you, it would be horrible and completely out of order, so I don’t understand why you you would do that to yourself. As your friends, we were just trying to make you see that you’re not, nor have ever been, lazy. I wouldn’t accept it if someone else said it to you, and I won’t accept it when you say it to yourself.
Paula's right. You are very far from lazy. I hate that you think of yourself so negatively.... Actually your posts don't sound as if you were remotely pleased with what you achieved yesterday...
Yeah of course, you’re all right and I’m wrong. That’s usually the way this works. I best stfu before I make a bigger arse of myself.
That's not it at all.... Please don't react like that. It's not a case of "us vs you" at all. We are trying to explain how we are seeing things....
Look just forget it. It’s fine.
Talia’s birthday present has arrived today. A nice new Julius K9 harness which will hopefully be more comfortable for her when she’s out and about. Bloody wants to be for the price!
I’ve not been having a great day. Have spent most on it in bed. Only got up to have something to eat and back under the covers again. I’ve been getting dizzy spells again and my stomach hasn’t been good either. I’m actually getting quite used to this lockdown. That in itself is quite scary.
Brushing it off with "it's fine" doesn't make it so though... I hate that we've upset you, and I was hoping to explain what I was meaning, not make things worse... I'm sorry.
Dizzy spells? Have you checked your sugar levels? Are you eating and drinking properly? Do you not think you should speak to your Dr?
I don’t wanna drag it out. You’re all focussing on the wrong thing and I don’t wanna fall out with anyone so best to just drop it.
It happens occasionally but not in a long time til today. I’ve spoken to the quack previously and he can’t pinpoint a cause. It’s like when your drunk and the room starts spinning, I lose my balance and I can’t visually focus on anything. It only lasts a few seconds and then I’m fine again but it’s happened 3 times today so far.Quote:
Dizzy spells? Have you checked your sugar levels? Are you eating and drinking properly? Do you not think you should speak to your Dr?
Vertigo? Do you have a blood sugar monitor?
Make that 4 times! Yes I have a monitor but I never use it.
Might be worth trying to use it - especially when the dizziness hits. It could be high or low blood sugar...
No it’s definitely not that.
I’ve got my first online guitar lesson tomorrow morning. It was delayed by a week due to low numbers signed up but got confirmation that’s starting tomorrow. Now the time has come I’m not as excited as I thought I’d be. That inner bully is telling me not to bother cos it’s not worth it and I’ll only make a fool of myself and I’m not cut out for it etc etc. But then when did I ever listen to anyone else, and I don’t quit easy so I will drag myself through the next 5 weeks (2hrs per week) whether I enjoy it or not cos it’s paid for and I promised myself I’d do it.
Oh and my lovely sibling took my car tonight. I’ve learned that she is finally getting her car mot’d after driving it around since the middle of Feb without a test certificate!!! She is such a moron it is unreal. I can’t believe we’re actually related. Before anyone says about the new rules about mots during lockdown because hers ran out before everything hit the fan she’s not covered. If my dad were alive to see her abusing his car the way she does he would be beyond annoyed. It makes me so angry.
Oh well so much for the guitar lesson. Was supposed to start at 10 but still not got the zoom link. Messaged the tutor but no reply. So bloody annoyed. Now I’m left in limbo not knowing what the hell is going on or what to do with myself. Aaaarrrrrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!
That’s not good! Has it been sorted yet?
I contacted the administrator and apparently there have been “internet connectivity issues”. Not sure how that stops a text message being sent or received but eventually I got a call apologising. Gonna possibly try again tomorrow. I’m not good with change and uncertainty. Today it pretty much a write off and can’t make plans for tomorrow cos I don’t know if the lesson is gonna happen or not. Elevated anxiety as a result. Not having the best week so far :(
I'm sorry it didn't happen this morning. Hope it does tomorrow.
It’s the frustration of the build up, setting up the tech, tuning the guitar only for it to be for nothing and now because it hasn’t happened the whole day feels out of sync as a result
.
I can see that.. Have you been able to change your day around and do something different?
I had a big fat pizza delivered for lunch and now I feel worse. At least there is left overs for dinner. Took my meds and having a lie down with the snuggle pup.
Worse in what way?