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Your post has made me smile :)
Feeling tearful.... my daughter was at a formal a month ago and we paid to get her hair and make-up done for the night.
Today I did her hair and make-up and she prefers today's look to the one we paid for. She loves her eyes etc and says she feels more comfortable going out knowing she looks really good.
I dropped her off at her date's house and he had a lovely wrist corsage for her but then he only went and gave me a bunch of flowers and a huge box of chocolates. Such a lovely surprise. My daughter was well impressed and even more pleased for me than for her own corsage.
Awww that's so lovely!!!
Aww that's so lovely!!
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww
That's so nice :)
How lovely!!!...now that's what I call a lovely lad! Good on him. I bet you're pleased your daughter is going out with someone so thoughtful!
How are you lovely?
Hey all. I have had such a busy weekend I am shattered. I'm sitting with my feet up watching back to back Christmas movies. Every part of my body aches but my mood is ok so I'll go with it. I have been sleeping a bit better and I know its really too early for the new meds to be making a difference but I feel as if I'm feeling a bit ..... well I'm not sure but hopeful maybe.
Hopeful is going to help on its own :). And yay! for Christmas movies (party)
You are so right huni. Sorry I've been such a negative Nancy, I am going to really try and capture a bit of hope and try to hold on to It. I am burying my head in the sand a bit at the moment with regard to how I am going to manage family contact around Christmas. I guess I'm hoping my new meds will make a difference before then and maybe help me cope better.
Erm... most important question - which Christmas movies? Which is your favourite?
I sat watching Christmas movies on the Sony movie channel yesterday too!!
Oh Suzi sooooooo many to choose from really depends on my mood. Love the old movies like White Christmas, Miracle on 34th Street, it's a wonderful life bit I also love cheesy Christmas romances and of course the all-time must watches... Elf and The Grinch, Polar Express. Stick a Christmas Tree in it and I'm hooked. I have a thing for Christmas Trees.
I love Miracle on 34th Street! So..... how are you feeling atm? When do you put your decs up?
It's a Wonderful Life is my favourite!!!
Elf. It’s massive in my house :)
Tbh I'm not quite sure how I am. I feel like I'm being a bit of an ostrich.... ignoring things that are too difficult to work out. I'm keeping excessively busy to distract and feel exhausted most of the time. I'm still battling su thoughts every day but I'm battling them. As i said to my psychiatrist, if I can just get to the point where I want to be safe. At the moment when people say, can you keep yourself safe, my problem is always that a lot of the time I don't want to be safe. Anyway, I'm ticking off the days. I'm going to bed shortly as I'm knackered. I'll take a tablet so I get sleep and tick off another day.
My husband is The Grinch! ! His rule is no tree til December...... however, that doesn't mean other little ornaments won't make their way out of the boxes.........
I'm so proud of you for being open and honest about that. I know it's really hard to do so.
Have you spoken to hubby about everything yet?
We have talked through some stuff but I'm still thinking through the new diagnosis (or ignoring it). At the moment for me it would not be helpful to have to go there with him. My focus is on battling my mood and thoughts at the moment and just trying to be mum and trying to find a glimpse of enjoying something. Having to deal with that as well is just too much for me right now.
Hunni, do you and A normally not talk about things which are difficult?
Oh yes. We discuss any difficult topic about the kids, money, him etc, its just me. I clam up about me. But I guess that's because I learnt early on to keep everything about me secret.... especially my feelings and emotions and thoughts. I work things out in my head first and then talk. i guess i dont fully trust anybody.... even the person closest to me. But i understand why that is.
So do I, but maybe you could start by breaking things down into bits - So maybe tell him you're changing meds.... Then tell him you have a diff diagnosis - you aren't able to explain it, but you wanted him to know that you are working through it etc?
He knows ive changed meds, i told him about that as he too had been concerned about the side effects I was having from the last ones. He's glad I've new ones to try and he knows that they are for people who haven't had improvement with the normal choice of drugs. I'm doing what my psychologist suggested for now and laying aside the diagnosis and all the turmoil associated with it and just concentrating on what I need to do to get through each day. I can pick it up when my mood is in a better place. She still maintains that when i have worked through my trauma that a lot of other thingscwill improve also and i can then pick up and work with what i need to do to stay well.
I hope that will happen too. And I think that will happen. That more will improve. Things are connected.
Reading about you watching christmas movies gives me a smile. I love them too :)
You are amazing. You are working so hard. I'm so proud of you!
A very positive post SMum just take it day by day and you'll get there.
Had an appointment with my CPN today. She said that she felt I looked better than the last time she saw me. My sleeping is a bit better so I think its helping me overall. I'm desperately trying to keep positive and keep a bit of hope that these new meds will help me.
Attended my floristry course today. Did a nice table arrangement for one of my assessment pieces. It worked out fairly well and i think its good enough for a pass. went for a swim this afternoon too.
Getting my hair done tomorrow which will be nice but means I won't swim. Hopefully I'll get a swim on Friday.
I didn't really feel the benefit until I was on the top dose. Hopefully it will start kicking in soon for you
You're doing amazingly well hunni... Keep talking to those around you.
I am keeping my fingers crossed with regards to the meds. I hope they will help and do good work. So nice to get your hair done. That will be a nice treat.
And what a great course. Is it a long one?
Morning lovely, how are you today?
Hi, lovely, what are you up to today?
I met up with a friend this morning that I haven't seen in years. We were very close when our kids were small and did lots together but we have grown apart just due to life over past lot of years but whenever we meet its as if we were together just yesterday, we just pick up. We talked for 3 hours solid and caught up on life. I shared my illness with her and she caught me up on her life. It was lovely. Then I went and got my hair done so no grey. Came home, cooked dinner and ready to lift my hook. The fire is lit and I'm warm. Today is the first day I can remember in a long time that I haven't had a strong su urge to fight. It's been more peaceful than in a long long time.
That is one of the best posts I've read! That's amazing! I'm so thrilled for you! :)
Some of you will know how special this is.....this evening my daughter asked, mum how about we do a jigsaw and watch a movie? My heart exploded!! For us.... it's always Pitch Perfect... singalong it's ridiculous that we could act in that movie.
Added to that, today she was officially discharged from CAMHS. That's how well she has been doing. I'm super proud of her.
Awww that is brilliant sweetie x
I am beaming! :):)
Thanks for sharing this with us. I am in bed right now and this makes me happy. Its great to spend the evening this way and have a good time with a friend :).
How are you today lovely?