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I wish I could have some stability. I've been very agitated all day and found it difficult to control urges. I changed my bedding because the thought that I needed to just kept going round and round my head and wouldn't stop. It's like the longer I left it the louder it got. Found it very difficult to not spend either. And now that mood has broke I've spent the last hour flopped face down on my bed and exhausted.
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That kind of cyclical thought and mood is exhausting so not surprised that you needed to flop. Can you make sure you've got this all ready to show/talk through to the mh team?
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I'm tired and feeling a bit out of it today. Hard to explain, on edge/agitated/irritable, yet at the same time exhausted, finding it hard to sit still and also feel slightly detached. I was talking to J at 5am this morning, so not slept well. I eventually dozed off again at half 7.
Had Ash having a bit of a strop last week because I didn't reply to a rude message. Apparently in his head, friends comes with occasional benefits. He's decided not to contact me anymore, and to be honest, it's no huge loss. Had an email off dickhead too from another account, begging me to talk to me so he can help me out.
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I thought you were going to stop things with Ash and dickhead after their last strops? Please do lovely, you don't need their (swear)(swear)(swear)(swear)...
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Ash I had left alone but I hadn't blocked him. Dickhead I haven't spoken to him since I last said, he used a secondary email address, but I just deleted it.
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You deserve better than those pair of d*ckheads...
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I have better. It may take some time to get there, but I'm a lot happier then I have been in a long time.