Before I got this depression I used to be so active
Now I do nothing
I used to love going to Heathrow and photographing the aircraft
But I never go now because all I want to do is stay at home
On Monday I said to myself that I will go to the airport
On Saturday
But today come around and I just could not do it
So gutted and angry with myself
How can I push myself to do things
I hate missing out on things I used to love doing