first counselling session

[JackieK]

Hi everyone, I have just had my first counselling session and it was good to talk about some of the things that have bothered and hurt me over the past few years. I thought she may say I didnt need it as I was starting to feel better and coping more with things, but she thinks it will do me a lot of good!

Personally I think we keep far too much in. We try and convince ourselves and the people around us that we are doing fine, not admitting we need help. Eventually something will give. I have been very lucky, when something gave for me, it wasn't devasting, it frightened me into admitting just how bad I had been feeling. I told a lot of people that I was suffering from depression and it really helped me. Just admitting it made it seem less scary, specially when so many people i know came back to me, to tell me they had suffered the same.

It is not easy admitting you need help, but trust me it was the best thing I ever did. I still have a long way to go. I still have low days and have moments of panic, but I am learning to control and deal with them. I am going to beat this thing and if I can so can you!

thanks to everyone on here who has offered me messages of support, its a fabulous site

[Suzi]

That is an amazingly positive post lovely, print it out and keep it somewhere where you will see it every day!

[veggie]

Be proud of yourself hunni,that is brilliant.
Massive well done to you.

[JackieK]

Thankyou

Had another session today. And its amazing how someone else can point out what should really be obvious to us anyway!

My counsellor thinks I have too high standards set for myself! And if I dont get to where I think I should be in a certain amount of time, I give up and think Iam a failure! It is quite scary how she can get into my thoughts lol.

She says I seem to worry too much about what people may think and that rather than admit that I am good at something, I put myself down and try to dismiss it completely. I have been told to go away and think about those two points, specially the high standard thing, which is something that i never thought of myself. I think its amazing how we can know someone else better than we know ourselves.

But again I feel really positive today

[Suzi]

I think that your session sounds really really positive.. Well done you!

[veggie]

Well done Jackie.

[JackieK]

thanks everyone, I must admit I was a little sceptical on whether counselling would work, but it is doing wonders for me

[mummyhill]

Glad to hear it love.