Hello from me :)

[rainydays]

HI there,

Well, nobody on here knows me, per se, but a few of you probably know OF me....sounds ominous doesn't it?

My name is Vicky, and I am wife to Steve (hurtinghusband). He's urged me to post on here...though I do feel I'm sort of playing to a hostile audience, as I can't imagine anything you may have 'heard' about me can be good.

Let's sum me up shall we?

Have suffered from depression FOREVER! Ok, not forever, the last 10-12 years, but any fellow sufferers will know how slow time goes in the land of depression....at least when you're feeling bad, the good bits seem to whiz by fairly rapidly (ref.sods law)

I'm wife to Steve, and mum to two beautiful children, and when I'm well, I'm actually very highly functioning....another reason that the depression is so frustrating, it makes you take baby steps....I'm not a very patient person.

Am going through a bad time of late, having slowly declined over a period of about 6 months, which (after a change in AD's) culminated in a fully fledged breakdown. Still trying to claw my way up from that one, and seem to be getting there, albeit very slowly. The good times are getting longer, better, and more frequent. I'm still having bad days (and some REALLY bad days), but am dealing with them alot better (for the most part).

I have said and done alot of regretful things, but if I were to blame myself entirly, the guilt would eat me alive. When I look at things objectivly, I know the depression is at the root of most of my lapses in judgement.

Today is a bad day, which feels really bad after having a good week (relativly speaking)....I have cried and cried, and cut.....but experience tells me I just have to wait for this to pass

Apologies for the epic post, and thanks for reading/listening

Vicky XXX

[Watson]

Welcome on board Vicky

Don't expect a hard time, I think most people on here know what sort of things you are going through, and can empathise.

Talk as much or as little as helps you, but the more you talk, quite often, the better it helps.

[suzi]

hi vicky! nice to meet you!!

you wont get anything here but support, advice, understanding, suggestions and a lot of laughs and friendship too!

make a cup of tea, pull up a chair and jump right in!

you are more than welcome!

[lizzie]

Hello and welcome vicky

I'm sure you'll get nothing but support and care from everyone here

[jerseygirl]

Hello Vicky ~ I am so glad you decided to join us!! missymiss123

Don't think for a minute that anyone on here will judge you - that's not what we are about..........all we try to do is listen, support and offer advice if we can - we have all been through some aspect of depression and so there will generally be someone on here somewhere that can relate to how you are feeling.............

Like Suzi say's, make yourself a cuppa, you don't have to say anything you don't want to say but know that you are more than welcome xxx

Look forward to yakking with you sweets biggrin1

[Emmie]

Hello Vicky, it is lovely to meet you, we've been encouraging Steve to get you on here since he appeared!

Really don't worry about us judging you, as everyone else has said we've all been there one way or another so we really do understand. Talk when you need to and we'll reply to you and generally look after you.

[mummyhill]

Hi vicky,

grouphug* Welcome to the group. As all the others have said we are here to help not judge or critisize. Talk as much or as little as you want just know that we will listen and try to help as much as possible when you need us.

[seaspirit]

Hi Vicky
It is very nice to meet you, you have come to the right place where you will get nothing but support and friendship.

grouphug*

[Bunny]

Hi Vicki, it's nice to "meet" you at last. Don't be scared to talk to us, we don't bite. make yourself at home.

[donut]

From one vicky to another vicky, welcome. No judgements are giving here just advice, a shoulder to cry on and always someone to talk to. Be kind to yourself xx

[Mickylass]

Just wanted to say hi and welcome. This is a great place to off load, I haven't been around much and I'm catching up with posts (albeit v slowly) Today is not a good day for me, Why do the tears come and why do people insist on asking what's the matter. If I knew the answer I could sort it, but the tears come. And yes like you I know that I'll get through this, I've done it a thousand times but when your here, at rock bottom in the dark, it is very hard to remember that.
Stay strong, guys on here are great and have helped me through so much.
x