foxy0010
17-01-2007, 10:52 PM
hi all, im lisa, im 30 and have a 13 year old fantasic son and a diamond of a boyfriend. i have depression and have been on prozac now for nearly 2 years, i too still have my bad days along with mostly good ones, depression is in my family, my nan (my dads mum) suffered with mental illness and depression 25 years ago she commited suicide.
about 5 years ago while on holiday with my mother my father broke down and confessed all about his depresson which he'd kept hidden from us all, during the last 5 years he had 5 suicide attempts, all overdoses, to which my mum would always call me when he'd done it and id have to go and comfort her and help with my dad, during the 5 years of coping with my dads illness i had a lot of mixed emotions and alot of unanswered questions as to WHY he did this, i was angry, thought he was selfish, untill it came about 2 years ago that i was also suffering from depression and without realising think i have done most of my life, i sort of then understood how my dad was feeling then it came to light that my dad had never got over his mothers death and he also had a rough childhood, coping with his mums illness. sadley on 31st july 06 my dad successfully commited suicide, his 6th attemt, at first i was so angry with him and i was quite hard about it all, i kept saying to myself how selfish he was to leave my mum, me, my brother and his devoted grandson, and the rest of our close family, then my feelings changed and i realsied how ill and unhappy my dad must of been to kill himself and leave us all behind, i just hope now hes at peace and happy, but of course we are all left to pick up the pieces and get on with our lives, i have my good days and bad days, christmas was hard but we coped. just wanted to say im here if anyone wants to chat, ask me anything, i dont mind or u can catch me on msn
about 5 years ago while on holiday with my mother my father broke down and confessed all about his depresson which he'd kept hidden from us all, during the last 5 years he had 5 suicide attempts, all overdoses, to which my mum would always call me when he'd done it and id have to go and comfort her and help with my dad, during the 5 years of coping with my dads illness i had a lot of mixed emotions and alot of unanswered questions as to WHY he did this, i was angry, thought he was selfish, untill it came about 2 years ago that i was also suffering from depression and without realising think i have done most of my life, i sort of then understood how my dad was feeling then it came to light that my dad had never got over his mothers death and he also had a rough childhood, coping with his mums illness. sadley on 31st july 06 my dad successfully commited suicide, his 6th attemt, at first i was so angry with him and i was quite hard about it all, i kept saying to myself how selfish he was to leave my mum, me, my brother and his devoted grandson, and the rest of our close family, then my feelings changed and i realsied how ill and unhappy my dad must of been to kill himself and leave us all behind, i just hope now hes at peace and happy, but of course we are all left to pick up the pieces and get on with our lives, i have my good days and bad days, christmas was hard but we coped. just wanted to say im here if anyone wants to chat, ask me anything, i dont mind or u can catch me on msn