Hello

[lizzie]

Hi

I'm caren I too have had depression since i was 14 only i did'nt know then that it was that , i'v spent years on and off anti-d's and had therpy I'm now off anti-d's and waiting to see the mental health team , had good days now but still bad days too

Ok think thats it ???

[Bluebell]

Hi Caren ;)

[lizzie]

hello

[suzi]

hi and welcome caren.
Glad you could join us!

[darwins_reject]

welcome, im being nosey i know, but did you get diagnosed at 14?

[lizzie]

No darwin_reject i did'nt but looking back it was the first time i took a overdose i really did want to die I took 80 tablets and went to bed at night so i'd die in my sleep and no-one would fine me but i woke up the next morning , it was when i started self harming , I hated myself and my life , people put it down to my dad dieing and my mum meeting a new bloke 3 months later but from then on my life is a near blank , there's so much missing that i can't remember nearly 2 years worth and at 16 years old i wrote letters to my sister saying i just wanted to be dead (she gave me the letters back 3 years ago) and i was shocked that from such a early age that being dead was more important than living

sorry that turned into a essay

[suzi]

caren, you have nothing to apologise for. write as much or little as you want.

You have had a really rough time.. keep talking!

[lizzie]

thanks suzi

your a star yes.1

[darwins_reject]

No darwin_reject i did'nt but looking back it was the first time i took a overdose i really did want to die I took 80 tablets and went to bed at night so i'd die in my sleep and no-one would fine me but i woke up the next morning , it was when i started self harming , I hated myself and my life , people put it down to my dad dieing and my mum meeting a new bloke 3 months later but from then on my life is a near blank , there's so much missing that i can't remember nearly 2 years worth and at 16 years old i wrote letters to my sister saying i just wanted to be dead (she gave me the letters back 3 years ago) and i was shocked that from such a early age that being dead was more important than living

sorry that turned into a essay


"turned into an essay"? thats the whole point of this plce, the more you talk about it, the easier it is