Blackbird
23-01-20, 02:15 AM
How's it going, I'm quite lonely and there's very little in the way of mental health support in my area, so I thought I'd give this forum a go.
As introductions go, Mum's a narcissistic emotionally manipulative woman-child with a habit of drinking a bottle of wine each night, she got worse over the years, my dad was distant but got better when he split from my mum, guess she made him miserable too. Grew up never feeling quite right, funny thoughts and distressing feelings. Eventually sought help when I turned 18, got some meds, they were no good. Turned to alcohol and drugs to deal with this shadow whispering in my ear about how I'm no good and lack worth.
Did more harm than good as it turned out, never got addicted fortunately, but who knew mind altering chemicals could alter your mind. Tried to deal with my feelings in other ways which left nothing but a bunch of scars. I'm currently on a rehab and substance abuse support program, which hasn't helped me much admittedly. I'm awaiting a mental health assessment to see if there's anything besides depression and anxiety afflicting my frazzled, forsaken brain, am now taking new meds, the third medication they've tried.
But overall, I feel I have no support, nobody there, my cat's there, but he doesn't talk much, so yeah.
As introductions go, Mum's a narcissistic emotionally manipulative woman-child with a habit of drinking a bottle of wine each night, she got worse over the years, my dad was distant but got better when he split from my mum, guess she made him miserable too. Grew up never feeling quite right, funny thoughts and distressing feelings. Eventually sought help when I turned 18, got some meds, they were no good. Turned to alcohol and drugs to deal with this shadow whispering in my ear about how I'm no good and lack worth.
Did more harm than good as it turned out, never got addicted fortunately, but who knew mind altering chemicals could alter your mind. Tried to deal with my feelings in other ways which left nothing but a bunch of scars. I'm currently on a rehab and substance abuse support program, which hasn't helped me much admittedly. I'm awaiting a mental health assessment to see if there's anything besides depression and anxiety afflicting my frazzled, forsaken brain, am now taking new meds, the third medication they've tried.
But overall, I feel I have no support, nobody there, my cat's there, but he doesn't talk much, so yeah.