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Paula
20-12-19, 10:30 PM
A new thread for the next phase in my recovery. The focus at the 3 month follow up yesterday was definitely on how to learn from what went right and what went wrong over the last 3 months, and how to use those lessons in the next phase of recovery, and beyond. I’ve still got a lot of work to do ;)

Angie
20-12-19, 11:14 PM
You may still have work to do but you have already made mahoooooosive inroads already babe xx

Suzi
21-12-19, 10:26 AM
I completely agree! You really are amazing and so determined.

OldMike
21-12-19, 10:31 AM
You have a massive strength I can only aspire to you're so inspirational, go girl onwards and upwards (panda)

EJ
21-12-19, 11:21 AM
Dear Paula I can’t seem to keep up with you. I wish you a very happy Christmas to you and your family xxx

Mira
21-12-19, 02:35 PM
Yes there is still a lot of work to do. But look at what you have already done. I have such huge amount of respect for you and how you are doing.

Paula
21-12-19, 09:23 PM
Thank you all (and Happy Christmas EJ). I always told my parents stubbornness would get me everywhere ;)

Got back from the in laws to a very cold house. I’m currently under a heavy throw watching Michael McIntyre. I’m very tired, it was a long day

Suzi
21-12-19, 09:36 PM
When is the boiler person coming out?

Strugglingmum
21-12-19, 11:28 PM
oh no. boiler again??
Hope you get sorted hun. Cold is no good for pain.x

Paula
22-12-19, 08:02 AM
Boiler man is coming tomorrow. We do, however, have a definite diagnosis - it needs a new gas valve, the boiler is fine but the gas is not always getting through to the boiler. So, hopefully, tomorrow it’ll be properly sorted.

And, no SM, cold is not good for pain ....... aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhh. Si is sure there’s enough hot water for me to have a shower this morning - he’s going to have one at the golf club ;)

Suzi
22-12-19, 08:35 AM
Hoorah for a diagnosis. Sorry it's not until tomorrow though lovely! Enjoy that hot shower. Lots of hot drinks to help warm you up hunni x

Paula
22-12-19, 10:53 AM
I’ve been brave this morning - I’ve asked about membership of a local pool and I’ve signed up for a taster session at a rock choir!

Suzi
22-12-19, 11:46 AM
Oh wow! That's awesome on both counts!

EJ
22-12-19, 12:34 PM
(party)Well done Paula

Mira
22-12-19, 12:37 PM
You rock!

Jaquaia
22-12-19, 01:59 PM
That's awesome!!!

Paula
22-12-19, 02:19 PM
(blush)

OldMike
22-12-19, 02:23 PM
A rock choir that sounds awesome.

Strugglingmum
22-12-19, 03:12 PM
A rock choir sounds amazing!!!

Angie
22-12-19, 07:54 PM
Yay go you :)

Suzi
22-12-19, 08:43 PM
How are you doing?

Paula
22-12-19, 10:01 PM
I’m good ;)

Mira
23-12-19, 09:14 AM
And how is today treating you?

Paula
23-12-19, 09:14 AM
Hopefully warmly, once the engineer comes ;)

Mira
23-12-19, 09:16 AM
It would be great if that could be sorted today. And that it will last a long time after. So you can be warm a bit longer this time.

Paula
23-12-19, 09:22 AM
So true :)

Suzi
23-12-19, 09:51 AM
Keeping fingers crossed (in thought as I actually can't keep them crossed lol) that you get heat back today!

Strugglingmum
23-12-19, 05:00 PM
Hope you are feeling toasty!!

Suzi
23-12-19, 06:05 PM
Has the boiler person arrived? Fixed it?

Paula
23-12-19, 06:10 PM
Nope. He definitely said monday morning but when Si checked the app they’d changed it to tomorrow. Still, it’s working at the moment, long may that last

Suzi
23-12-19, 06:21 PM
Hope it lasts love!

Paula
24-12-19, 08:59 AM
I sound like a broken record but ....... it’s boiler day today (hopefully) :)

Suzi
24-12-19, 10:08 AM
YAY for boiler person day!!!!

Mira
24-12-19, 10:09 AM
I am keeping my fingers crossed.

Paula
24-12-19, 11:31 AM
We have heat and hot water! Now Christmas can commence (party)

Suzi
24-12-19, 12:14 PM
Hooray for heating and hot water!!!

Strugglingmum
24-12-19, 12:19 PM
Hurrah hurrah! !

Angie
24-12-19, 03:18 PM
Yayyyy xx

Mira
24-12-19, 09:30 PM
How are you doing? Apart from enjoying the heat :)

Paula
25-12-19, 10:23 AM
I’m great, thank you Mira. Looking forward to lunch with my family :)

Suzi
25-12-19, 02:51 PM
Hope you've been spoilt rotten love!

Paula
25-12-19, 04:18 PM
Always;)

Suzi
25-12-19, 07:17 PM
Good! :)

Flo
25-12-19, 08:21 PM
You're the third person in the last week I know that has had trouble with their boiler!!! Thank goodness for hot water!

Paula
27-12-19, 07:17 PM
What a treat! I’ve had a letter from the Jobcentre asking me to go for an interview with proof of who I am, income etc on 17 Jan owing to ‘changes’ in benefits. Except I’m not on income related benefits .....

Mira
27-12-19, 09:16 PM
Could it be that you have a right to benefits? I had this with health care support. I was not entitled to it I learned after 2 years. And I did contact the tax office about that over 5 times and they told me it was ok. In the end I needed to pay back over 2000 euro.

Suzi
27-12-19, 09:40 PM
Hmm, call them and double check?

Paula
27-12-19, 10:24 PM
Hmm, call them and double check?

I rang but the office isn’t open til the 7th. I’ve diarised to call them then


Could it be that you have a right to benefits? I had this with health care support. I was not entitled to it I learned after 2 years. And I did contact the tax office about that over 5 times and they told me it was ok. In the end I needed to pay back over 2000 euro.

I’m pretty certain I do, but it will be one of the questions I ask

Suzi
28-12-19, 11:58 AM
I sympathise. It's horrible having that hanging over your head....

Paula
28-12-19, 02:12 PM
Si and I are off to a friend’s for dinner tonight - though I feel sorry for him and my friend’s husband as we’ve been friends for over 35 years and they don’t get a look in ;)

Suzi
28-12-19, 03:20 PM
Sounds like loads of fun! :) Enjoy!!

Mira
28-12-19, 03:28 PM
Enjoy. You deserve a good time.

Jaquaia
28-12-19, 07:25 PM
Have fun!!!

Paula
28-12-19, 11:13 PM
We had a lovely time, great food and a few glasses of wine ;). I am also the cat whisperer. Her 2 were literally queueing up for cuddles with me !

EJ
29-12-19, 07:54 AM
That sounds lovely. I’m glad you had a good time xx

Suzi
29-12-19, 10:31 AM
So glad you had a good time oh cat whisperer! :)

Paula
29-12-19, 08:15 PM
So, first day sans morphine done ;)

Jaquaia
29-12-19, 08:21 PM
You're awesome! How are you feeling?

Paula
29-12-19, 08:33 PM
Nauseous, very irritated. Si is treading on eggshells lol

Jaquaia
29-12-19, 09:04 PM
Lots of rest while your body adjusts?

Strugglingmum
29-12-19, 09:14 PM
You're amazing(panda)

Paula
29-12-19, 09:18 PM
I don’t feel amazing, I just feel like every nerve is on edge. Thankfully, I know it will pass. Just hoping no one decides to (swear)(swear)(swear)(swear) me off ...

Suzi
29-12-19, 10:21 PM
Going into the new year without it huh? Please be gentle with yourself love..... And breathe and count to 10 before you shout at Si ;)

Paula
29-12-19, 10:48 PM
We don’t do New Year, really. It’s Katie’s birthday and we’re going out for lunch. We’ll possibly sit up to watch the fireworks from London but that’s it so that doesn’t bother me. But, yes, I’ll be gentle - and will try to be nice on Si ;)

Suzi
30-12-19, 10:15 AM
No, I meant starting 2020 without morphine.....
We don't tend to do NYE either really.. Same as you, watch the fireworks and then head to bed!

Paula
30-12-19, 10:39 AM
Oh ok, that makes more sense ;) and, stupidly, I hadn’t thought of it like that!!

Suzi
30-12-19, 04:10 PM
(rofl) How's it going lovely?

Paula
30-12-19, 05:10 PM
Aching, upset stomach, nausea. Same as lol. I’ll get through.

Ooo I’m sitting on my new sofa in my downstairs lounge (how posh does that sound ;)). Just got to get it decorated now. It’s so nice having a loo on the same floor as I am! (Especially today ....)

Suzi
30-12-19, 05:39 PM
OOOO that does sound posh! Are there pictures?

Mira
30-12-19, 05:59 PM
A new sofa. Thats nice. What does it look like?

Jaquaia
30-12-19, 06:02 PM
Assuming Suzi means the sofa and not the loo... (giggle)

Mira
30-12-19, 06:05 PM
Haha I hope so. Maybe its her thing? Seeing other peoples toilets :)

I have one on every floor. A loo I mean. Only have one sofa.....

Paula
30-12-19, 06:41 PM
(rofl) I’ll post pictures when it’s all done

Suzi
30-12-19, 08:45 PM
Definitely only meant the sofa lol

Paula
30-12-19, 09:29 PM
So, it was going to happen. Went for a walk and Jess and Si did their normal ganging up on me. I know they were only teasing but I got home and completely blew up at Si. I’ve felt crap all day and it would have been nice to not have that to deal with too ...... still, I get productive when I’m angry :/

Jaquaia
30-12-19, 09:31 PM
(panda)

EJ
30-12-19, 09:34 PM
I have this too with D and N. I feel your pain Paula. Don’t let it get you down xx

Suzi
30-12-19, 09:51 PM
Oh love, you know it's the morphine removal, the pain and the stress that's causing it.... You should hear the comments I've been getting about hopping or removing crutches.... I've found it's better to tell them when I'm heading towards "enough".....

OldMike
31-12-19, 07:53 AM
Paula & Suzi if the opposition gang up on you just thwack 'em on the shins with one of your crutches "oops sorry must've slipped" ;) (giggle)

Suzi
31-12-19, 11:47 AM
(rofl)(rofl)(rofl) I can't tell you how many times I've threatened that one lol

How are you today gorgeous?

EJ
31-12-19, 02:27 PM
I haven’t any crutches and am frequently ganged up on. I do hold my ground x

Paula
31-12-19, 05:40 PM
Honestly? I’ve had to hold it together because it’s Katie’s birthday but, on the way home from our lunch with her, with me driving, I lost it with the 2 of them. At one point, as I was singing along to the radio, Jess said ‘God, just kill me now!’

But Katie had a lovely time, and loved her pressie, so that’s the main thing

Jaquaia
31-12-19, 05:42 PM
(panda)

Suzi
31-12-19, 06:20 PM
Oh hunni (panda)(bear)(bear)

What did you get her?

Paula
31-12-19, 08:14 PM
A Swarovski ring

Suzi
01-01-20, 12:19 AM
I love Swarovski stuff!

Paula
01-01-20, 09:41 AM
It’s gorgeous and goes perfectly next to the ring Dom got her for Christmas :)

Last night was a struggle - upset tum, nausea, headache, palpitations etc .... but we saw in the new year :)

Suzi
01-01-20, 10:17 AM
How lovely!

Well done lovely, well done. Hope you're feeling brighter this morning....

OldMike
01-01-20, 10:57 AM
I had to Google Swarovski and they make some beautiful stuff so giving Katie a Swarovski ring was a beautiful choice.

Mira
01-01-20, 12:16 PM
Hope you are feeling better. And what a lovely gift. It will not be long and you are getting some gifts too :)

Paula
01-01-20, 01:18 PM
Oh I’ve had my birthday present ;)

Angie
01-01-20, 02:06 PM
What was that ?

Edit to say I love swarovski and use their beads making my jewellery x

Suzi
01-01-20, 02:31 PM
What???? Tell us everything!

Paula
01-01-20, 04:40 PM
Lol, we all had a £50 limit on Christmas pressies but mine was coming from America, apparently, and didn’t arrive on time. So Si gave me my birthday present - my new iPad. I think, as it was expensive, he’s going to sell the one from America to Jess to give to me (rofl)

Suzi
01-01-20, 06:05 PM
(rofl)(rofl)(rofl) Nice ;)

OldMike
01-01-20, 06:10 PM
Did I miss your birthday Paula you got your birthday present for Xmas and your Xmas present for your birthday!? Eeps so complicated is the life of a Princess ;)

Mira
01-01-20, 06:56 PM
You did not miss her birthday. That is 5 days from now. So no worries on that front.

Paula
01-01-20, 09:10 PM
Nope, Mike, mines on epiphany ;)

It’s been a rough evening, I’m really not coping well with this withdrawal. It’ll pass, but it’s rubbish while it’s here. Tomorrow is a very quiet day, methinks

Allalone
01-01-20, 09:32 PM
(panda)

Mira
01-01-20, 09:33 PM
Sorry to hear you had a rough evening. Sending my best wishes and good thoughts your way (panda)

Angie
01-01-20, 09:46 PM
Awww sweetie, but you have done it come off them and it is rough but you will get through it your one of the strongest people I know, please be kind to yourself xx

Suzi
01-01-20, 10:29 PM
Oh hunni, you can get through this love. I know you can.

Paula
01-01-20, 11:04 PM
I know I can too. It’s just been a tough few days of it. I’ll live ;)

Suzi
02-01-20, 09:27 AM
Pfft, you'll do more than that, you'll sparkle and shine (now that song's gonna be stuck in your head too) your way through it. You're awesome.

So.... How's stuff?

Paula
02-01-20, 10:59 AM
A bit brighter this morning. I’m hoping the worst is over. Who knew coming off morphine was hard (giggle)? Today is going to be finished my cross stitch (hopefully - but don’t hold me to that timescale ;))

Suzi
02-01-20, 11:28 AM
Glad you're a bit brighter! Morphine withdrawal is horrible. I'm so glad you're turning the last corners of it....

OldMike
02-01-20, 02:07 PM
Re morphine withdrawal hopefully the worst is past (bear)

No rush with the cross stitch, as they say more haste less speed so it is steady as you go (panda)

Mira
02-01-20, 02:08 PM
Good to hear. And what timescale? You will be finished when its finished and that is the correct timescale :)

Paula
02-01-20, 03:50 PM
Good to hear. And what timescale? You will be finished when its finished and that is the correct timescale :)

So true

Suzi
02-01-20, 04:51 PM
How's it going lovely?

Paula
02-01-20, 06:30 PM
I’ve been back stitching all day ..... grrrr. I’ve spent the last hour trying to figure out where to put the yellow back stitch on the yellow cross stitch but, as I can’t see them and they don’t seem to be making any difference, I’ve made an executive decision to forget that bit. Not far to go now but I’ve stopped for the day.

Health wise, I’m feeling better today :)

Jaquaia
02-01-20, 08:13 PM
Good!

Looking forward to seeing a photo of the finished product

Suzi
02-01-20, 08:57 PM
Hoorah for feeling better! :)

Paula
04-01-20, 07:37 AM
Yay! Mum and dad coming for lunch for our belated Christmas Day :)

EJ
04-01-20, 07:43 AM
Sounds lovely Paula I hope you enjoy being with your family xx

Jaquaia
04-01-20, 08:03 AM
Have fun!

Angie
04-01-20, 09:35 AM
Awww brilliant. Have lots of fun sweetie xx

Suzi
04-01-20, 10:39 AM
Happy belated Christmas Day with your parents! :)

Angie
04-01-20, 05:42 PM
Hope today has been a good day sweetie xx

Mira
04-01-20, 06:20 PM
Hope your day is going great (Kiss)

Paula
04-01-20, 07:03 PM
It’s been lovely and mum and dad wanted me to open my birthday present (which is gorgeous) with them there. My card made me cry! It says, if people could pick their daughters, each and every one would pick a daughter just like you (inlove)

Angie
04-01-20, 07:11 PM
Awwww that is lovely, am glad you have had a good day and what is the present?

Paula
04-01-20, 07:30 PM
A gorgeous necklace and bracelet they found in Majorca (dad found it!)

Angie
04-01-20, 07:36 PM
Awww sounds lovely pics please?

Jaquaia
04-01-20, 07:42 PM
That's so sweet! Sounds like you've had a wonderful day

Strugglingmum
04-01-20, 08:02 PM
Sounds wonderful

Paula
04-01-20, 08:16 PM
Mum took this today, you can see the necklace in it :)

https://i.ibb.co/ystDnFf/5138304-E-85-B0-4-CED-A29-F-46406-FD1-D427.jpg (https://ibb.co/1213fGv)
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Mira
04-01-20, 08:18 PM
Thanks for sharing the foto. What a great looking necklace. And two lovely ladies.

Jaquaia
04-01-20, 08:20 PM
Beautiful

Strugglingmum
04-01-20, 08:23 PM
You both look stunning and the necklace is gorgeous

Suzi
04-01-20, 08:42 PM
You can see where you get your beauty from! Your Mum is stunningly beautiful! That photo is awesome! So much love and happiness and smiles! The necklace is really pretty!

Paula
04-01-20, 08:56 PM
Mum is beautiful. We were looking through old (very old some of them) photos of my mums family and my Nan was stunningly beautiful - obvs I knew her older and she smoked like a chimney which takes its toll on skin - and my mum is the spitting image of her :).

magie06
04-01-20, 09:00 PM
And I think you are the image of your mum.
I have a very old photo of my gran (taken when she was about 15 - 16) and I allowed Ais to bring it to school last year, when they were doing their family tree. A lot of people saw a very good resemblance between the two of them. And I think Ais is like her dad's side.

Angie
04-01-20, 09:41 PM
Your mum is beautiful and so are you, the necklace is gorgeous x

Paula
05-01-20, 11:32 AM
I’m tired today. We watched the 2nd episode of the new Dracula BBC series last night. Each episode was 1 1/2 hours long (and 3 in the series) but once we’d watched the 2nd, we had to watch the 3rd. We didn’t finish until 12:45am! It was epic! Proper old school horror with huge twists :)

Suzi
05-01-20, 12:04 PM
ooo the first episode of that made me a bit squeamish! It was the bit as he tried the convent itms? Is the rest less grim?

Paula
05-01-20, 01:36 PM
A little, yes. He went through a ‘journey’

Angie
05-01-20, 01:49 PM
Hope today is a day of pacing and taking it easy x

Suzi
05-01-20, 03:07 PM
Thanks for the pointer! I'll have to watch it then ;)

Hope today is a bright one for you love.

Paula
05-01-20, 05:44 PM
My hands been flaring today but I wanted to do my cross stitch. So I did, but rested lots

Mira
05-01-20, 07:31 PM
Does doing cross stitch make it worse? And good that you took rest.

Paula
05-01-20, 08:46 PM
It does, but it doesn’t really. By that I mean it’s neurological and can be triggered by a slight breeze - so I might as well do what I want anyway itms

Mira
05-01-20, 08:56 PM
I see, yes then if it is possible its good to do something. If the pain is not to bad. What are your plans for tomorrow?

Suzi
05-01-20, 09:19 PM
Good for you! :) Glad you're resting whilst doing what you want to do...

Paula
05-01-20, 09:57 PM
I’m going out for dinner tomorrow evening with my family. Other than that I don’t know - Si and Jess have both got the day off but I don’t know if either of them have got anything planned

Suzi
06-01-20, 07:45 AM
Happy birthday!!!!

Paula
06-01-20, 08:42 AM
Thank you! :)

Paula
06-01-20, 10:40 AM
So, Si’s taking me to see Little Women *squeeeeaals* in Winchester to a cinema that has sofas for seats, and a bar (party)

Jaquaia
06-01-20, 11:27 AM
Sounds brilliant!!!

Angie
06-01-20, 01:15 PM
Ooooo enjoy xx

Suzi
06-01-20, 02:26 PM
Hope you are enjoying your afternoon!!

Paula
06-01-20, 10:42 PM
The film was great, the cinema was amazing (gin for lunch and a sundae brought, by a waiter, to my sofa in the screen!). And we had a lovely meal tonight :)

Angie
07-01-20, 12:37 AM
Glad that you had a good time sweetie x

Suzi
07-01-20, 08:01 AM
So glad you had a good day x

How are you today?

Paula
07-01-20, 08:31 AM
I’m good. I had a few drinks so my darling family were convinced I was going to be a little worse for wear today - but I’m good ;). At least I was until I weighed myself - diet starts today! Other than that, it’s a cross stitch day - the rest of the week is quite busy so I’m taking advantage of nothing in the diary today.

Angie
07-01-20, 08:35 AM
Glad your feeling ok sweetie, rest day sounds good x

EJ
07-01-20, 09:27 AM
The film was great, the cinema was amazing (gin for lunch and a sundae brought, by a waiter, to my sofa in the screen!). And we had a lovely meal tonight :)

Sounds like ‘Everyman’ glad you enjoyed it xx

Paula
07-01-20, 09:44 AM
It was, EJ, loved it!

Suzi
07-01-20, 11:45 AM
My closet cinema is an Everyman. It's cool!
Hope the cross stitch day is going well hunni x

Paula
07-01-20, 04:55 PM
Today’s been busy :). After checking my tax details to confirm I had full NI credits, I spoke to the Jobcentre about the income appointment they sent through. She was really helpful - it looks like the tax office have finally flagged (several years later) a tax return I completed when my pension provider medically retired me and sent me a small payout. She can’t see it being a problem but is going to do a telephone interview with me instead of me going in where I can talk the details of the payment through.

I’ve also arranged to start back at my voluntary work on 20th Jan - and said not yet when my boss asked me if I wanted to rejoin the Readers Group (reviewing all the patient information leaflets the hospital produces)

And I’ve finished all the stitching on my cross stitch - just got to attach some beads to it (I loathe doing french knots so almost always use seed beads instead)

I’ve ordered the shopping, arranged with mum for her to join me to see Anton & Erin at my local theatre (Katie’s birthday present to me), and got the house back together after Christmas and birthdays

It’s good to be back to normal :)

Suzi
07-01-20, 05:19 PM
Wow! That's all so amazing!
The readers group sounds good ;)

Paula
07-01-20, 05:55 PM
Lol, it’s not really, quite dull ;) but I know she likes me doing it as I’ll actually give constructive feedback rather than some of the others who’ll reply ‘looks ok’ to everything

Suzi
07-01-20, 06:04 PM
It's a good way back in though... And you'll make a real difference.

Strugglingmum
07-01-20, 06:06 PM
Overvthe moon for you to be getting back. Xx

Paula
07-01-20, 06:13 PM
It's a good way back in though... And you'll make a real difference.

Not too many things at a time though - I’m going to the rock choir next week, starting weekly shifts at the hospital and want to get swimming ;)

Suzi
07-01-20, 07:56 PM
That's a lot of things to me! :)

magie06
07-01-20, 10:24 PM
I agree about the French knots!!! I hate trying to do them. I use beads too.

Suzi
08-01-20, 08:14 AM
I've never thought of using beads and have always struggled with the knots!

How are you today?

Paula
08-01-20, 09:32 AM
I’m good. Walking over to see my bf, then my curate is coming this afternoon :)

Suzi
08-01-20, 12:09 PM
Wow, I'm still so amazed that you're walking etc...

Paula
08-01-20, 01:08 PM
I forget sometimes, I did ask Si if I could have the car, then realised it was walkable ;)

Angie
08-01-20, 01:23 PM
Still it shows how far you have come sweetie, xx

Suzi
08-01-20, 05:02 PM
That's just so amazing! Have you had a lovely day?

Paula
08-01-20, 08:08 PM
It has been a lovely day :)

Carpenters here tomorrow - yay!

Suzi
08-01-20, 08:09 PM
Woohoo!!!

Angie
08-01-20, 08:14 PM
Glad you have had a good day sweetie xx

Paula
09-01-20, 05:26 PM
Today has been less good. The carpenters done a good job, I’ve had a mani and pedi and the cleaners been so I should be grateful that I am so blessed but ....... I woke up (bolt upright) yelling in pain last night - it felt like I’d been whacked across the knee with a baseball bat. And it’s sooooo sore today, I can’t get warm and I’m feeling very miserable today.

Whine over

Strugglingmum
09-01-20, 05:30 PM
(panda) I'm sorry huni. X

Suzi
09-01-20, 08:27 PM
Oh hunni! I'm sorry you've had a crappy day.

Paula
09-01-20, 08:52 PM
Oh, I’ll be ok. Got to get on with it tomorrow - having my hair done, got yoga and got friends coming for dinner ;)

Suzi
09-01-20, 09:03 PM
OO get you, socialite!

Paula
10-01-20, 07:24 PM
Just before our guests arrive ;) I had a new colour today

https://i.ibb.co/0Q8Cd8q/0-C04221-C-CCAB-4903-92-CB-0-C0934181212.jpg (https://ibb.co/8XTrSTM)

Strugglingmum
10-01-20, 07:46 PM
Gorgeous!!!

Suzi
10-01-20, 09:54 PM
Looks fab! :)

Angie
11-01-20, 07:06 AM
That is lovely x

Paula
11-01-20, 10:31 AM
We had a great evening! Food was lovely, company was lovely. It was just a really chilled evening

OldMike
11-01-20, 02:11 PM
Lovely lady with a lovely hairstyle but where's the tiara ;)

I'm so glad you had a great time.

Strugglingmum
11-01-20, 02:39 PM
We had a great evening! Food was lovely, company was lovely. It was just a really chilled evening

Sounds perfect

Suzi
11-01-20, 04:17 PM
Glad you had a good time lovely xx

Angie
11-01-20, 10:00 PM
Glad you enjoyed yourself sweetie x

Suzi
12-01-20, 10:20 AM
Morning Princess, how are you today?

Paula
12-01-20, 01:28 PM
Hey! ;). I’m ok, though struggling to do anything today. I am doing stuff, it’s just a wading through treacle day. Still, Si made mutterings about going to see 1917, which I’m looking forward to :)

Suzi
12-01-20, 03:02 PM
OOOO I wanna see that movie - let me know what it's like?

Paula
12-01-20, 07:00 PM
Si didn't get tickets in time so they were sold out. I don’t know if it’s me or him atm but he’s irritating the hell out of me this weekend. Probably me.

Decorators coming tomorrow so we’ve been emptying the tv room and bathroom instead ....

Suzi
12-01-20, 08:19 PM
That sounds fun :( Can you do it another day?

Is it "just" Si?

Paula
12-01-20, 10:39 PM
Mainly, yeah. He really upset me by something he said on Friday and, though I’m trying to get on with it, I’m struggling

Suzi
13-01-20, 07:49 AM
Want to share what it was he said?

Paula
13-01-20, 09:47 AM
I feel ridiculous and like I overreacted but ...

We were talking about Polo and I said that, given his age and all his deteriorating health problems, he’s got months left at best. Si was adamant he would have to beat Luna’s age (just short of 14) which is unlikely given he’s not 13 yet. Si got really p!ssed and told me that he was an optimist whereas I was a pessimist, that I always saw the bad side of things and that it means I always get the worst of it by anticipating bad things happening and actually experiencing those things - a double whammy. He wouldn’t have it that I’m just realistic and preparing for these things helps me cope better when they do happens. We had a bit of an argument

He went out with Polo and I was so upset - so text him:

“I’m texting this cos I might cry if I say it to you. I can’t believe you think I’m a pessimist - if I was, I wouldn’t have gone to Bath as I’d have believed it wouldn’t help, I wouldn’t have taken on board any of what they taught me or changed everything I do in the hope I could change my life for the better. I think, given everything that’s happened to me over the years, I’ve remained more optimistic than most people could have expected to be“

His response? I didn’t mean it, but if you attack my best friend (Polo) I’m going to react.

Angie
13-01-20, 12:05 PM
I'm not sure you over reacted, but as you know it can be hard dealing with health issues with your pets especially when they get older aswell, and it can be hard to face that and I wonder if Si is refusing to face it may not be that long am sorry sweetie as I know it is so hard for you aswell. It sounds like you both deal with that in different ways. xx

Paula
13-01-20, 01:25 PM
You’re absolutely right, he’s refusing to face it which worries me as I don’t want Polo to suffer. And it leaves me with the responsibility and the fight, when the time comes

OldMike
13-01-20, 02:14 PM
Making the decision to have a pet put sleep is heartbreaking, there comes a point when the quality of life of the pet is so low it is the kindest option, Si should be supporting you not causing you more anguish.

FYI I certainly don't regard you as a pessimist, you get out there and do stuff. when you could no longer do cross stitch with both hands you found a way round it, Paula you're a strong fighter.

(bear) (panda)

Paula
13-01-20, 05:17 PM
Thank you, Mike. Though to be fair to Si he is usually amazingly supportive. I know he’s just really, really struggling with the thought that Polo hasn’t got much time left. And, as we all do when we’re in pain, he’s lashing out. So I know I shouldn’t really be hurt, but I am. So there you go :/

Angie
13-01-20, 05:50 PM
Oh sweetie, as the saying goes "you take it out on the one you love the most" he should not be lashing out at you though. But you are strong and your a strong couple and you will work it out, Si isn't going to want Polo to suffer though and he is sensible.

Suzi
13-01-20, 06:36 PM
I get it.... I have to think and prepare myself, Marc not so much so. I really feel for you love.
Have you talked it through yet and cleared the air?
Oh and you are very far from pessimistic to me!

Paula
16-01-20, 07:14 AM
Rock choir tonight!!! (rock):o

EJ
16-01-20, 08:12 AM
I’m all for that. Well done xx

Suzi
16-01-20, 08:40 AM
Good for you! Report back after!

Apart from being excited about rock choir, how are you?

Paula
16-01-20, 10:12 AM
A bit nervous about my phone interview with the Jobcentre tomorrow. Just trying to get all my pension paperwork together.

Angie
16-01-20, 11:58 AM
Oooo have fun tonight, and it can be a bit nerve wrackign with the jobcentre

Strugglingmum
16-01-20, 12:03 PM
Enjoy Rock Choir. Sounds like great fun

Suzi
16-01-20, 01:26 PM
You'll be fine with the jobcentre - Is Si going to be at home with you?

Paula
16-01-20, 03:44 PM
I hadn’t asked him....

OldMike
16-01-20, 03:50 PM
I'm sure you'll be okay (bear) (panda)

Suzi
16-01-20, 05:32 PM
I hadn’t asked him....
Why hadn't you asked him? You're concerned which will f*ck with your anxiety and mood etc etc when you're already dealing with withdrawal etc and you think you can do this on your own? Ask him. You're a team. If not, I'll be on the phone for you if you want/need?

Paula
16-01-20, 05:51 PM
Yes, boss (blush)

Suzi
16-01-20, 07:14 PM
Have you asked him yet?

Paula
16-01-20, 11:49 PM
Yes, he’s here and will be on hand

So, Rock Choir was pretty awesome. Nothing like I expected - to start with there was 150 people! It’s very organised, very professional, with a musical director and incredible arrangements. Because it was so huge, I didn’t feel self conscious. Everyone I spoke to was lovely but I didn’t have everyone’s attention because of my disability itms. I just sang :). And it’s the first day of the term so we were all in the same boat with learning the first piece (which was Super Trouper btw - I was so in my element!). Next week we start learning John Legend All of Me

Suzi
17-01-20, 10:01 AM
Hooray for Si!

AWESOME about rock choir! So proud of you for going!

OldMike
17-01-20, 10:13 AM
That's awesome glad you enjoyed the rock choir (I knew you would).

Just had to post this, I love these rock choir videos

Rock Choir - Something Inside So Strong (Live at Wembley Arena).

https://youtu.be/eYgMkFk8V78

Flo
17-01-20, 11:22 AM
Well done you Princess S!(bear)

Paula
17-01-20, 12:28 PM
Jobcentre interview went fine - the monies they were querying was a pension lump sum which doesn’t affect my ESA.

Suzi
17-01-20, 01:31 PM
YAY! That's fabulous news!

Strugglingmum
17-01-20, 01:32 PM
Rock Choir sounds amazing. Great news about your ESA

Angie
17-01-20, 01:39 PM
Glad it went well with the jobcentre sweetheart, hope your going to relax and rest now as it can be stressful even if we don't think we are stressed at the time we can realise after x

Paula
17-01-20, 02:32 PM
I was shaking a bit, Angie, though Si couldn’t understand it because he said what I did last night was more nerve wracking ;)

I’ve sounded up to be a member of the Rock Choir now!

I was on FaceTime with my parents earlier. I thought Si was up the golf course. I was talking about our row the other day over Polo - when I got off the call, I realised he was still home. I don’t know if he heard but I hope not. I didn’t say anything horrible because there wasn’t anything horrible to say, just that we’re seeing the vet tonight and I’m concerned about our different views.....

Angie
17-01-20, 02:41 PM
I can understand the shaking, it will be stress and anxiety, I'm sure Si would say something if he heard hunni but you haven't been horrible, hope things go ok with the vet tonight
Well done for signing upto the choir x

Suzi
17-01-20, 05:12 PM
Shaking is totally understandable!

Hope tonight goes OK.

Paula
17-01-20, 06:58 PM
Polo’s ok, just need to up his meds a bit (sounds familiar..... ;)). Now Si is busy cooking a sausage and onion plait that’s under 400 calories, allegedly, I’m sitting here with a (lower than other alcoholic drinks) gin and chilling lol

Jaquaia
17-01-20, 07:04 PM
That sounds positive

Angie
17-01-20, 08:42 PM
It does sound positive xx

Paula
17-01-20, 09:04 PM
Anybody here who knows me will understand my excitement at this news ........


ROCK CHOIR DOES FLASH MOBS!!!!!

Suzi
17-01-20, 09:47 PM
That's epic!!!!!

Paula
17-01-20, 10:04 PM
I know!!!!!!!!

Angie
17-01-20, 10:36 PM
(hedgehog)

Suzi
18-01-20, 10:36 AM
You've got to get the ones you're in recorded! I LOVE a good flashmob!

EJ
18-01-20, 11:26 AM
I had to look it up. Well done x

Paula
19-01-20, 02:12 PM
I’m not having a good day, shaky. I’ve had a long bath which didn’t really help. It’s my nephew’s birthday so we’ve been invited over for birthday cake but I’ve told Si I can’t go. We’d also talked about going swimming this afternoon but Sunday is going to be busy and I can’t face people today.

I know it’s cos I’ve pushing myself so today is a self care today, especially as I’ve got my first shift at the hospital tomorrow afternoon

Suzi
19-01-20, 02:47 PM
Anything I can do? Don't underestimate how much you have been doing and the stress with the jobcentre etc....

Definitely a self care day or two might be in order?

Angie
19-01-20, 04:45 PM
(bear)

Paula
19-01-20, 06:45 PM
I’ve had a quiet day. Tomorrow, I start my voluntary work again

Strugglingmum
19-01-20, 07:08 PM
All the best wishes in the world for tomorrow. (bear)

Paula
19-01-20, 10:14 PM
So, it’s taken me a while but I’ve figured out what’s up today. It’s 7 years since I had my fall and, despite being so much more positive about the future, it’s thrown me still

Angie
19-01-20, 10:27 PM
It will do babe take it easy on youirself xx

Suzi
20-01-20, 08:04 AM
7 years? Wow.... Look at the journey you've been on. You're amazing.

Hope your first shift goes well later love.

Paula
20-01-20, 10:08 AM
7 years! Driving Si to the station today, I commented that ‘this time 7 years ago, we were trying to decide if I needed to go to hospital’ ....... I’m so glad I did lol

Suzi
20-01-20, 10:24 AM
I remember you posting after you'd hurt it...

Paula
20-01-20, 07:20 PM
I remember you posting after you'd hurt it...

Yep, I made sure it was after I stopped swearing like a sailor!

First shift back at my voluntary work today and it went really well. It felt like I was there yesterday :)

But the big news is ....... today I swam properly, without a float even, for the first time since I hurt my leg! I’m not winning medals for my technique but I did it (party)

Angie
20-01-20, 07:32 PM
Yay way to go xx

Suzi
20-01-20, 08:09 PM
That is amazing! I hope you're resting tomorrow?

Paula
20-01-20, 08:45 PM
Ish ..... Si, Jess and I are going to watch 1917 :)