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Jhalex14
05-04-19, 09:06 AM
Not sure what to say. I am 46 and from Sheffield. I am starting to get depression again. Also I think I may have BPD, all the signs are there but unfortunately getting a formal diagnosis seems an uphill struggle. Thanks for reading

Mira
05-04-19, 10:19 AM
Hello, nice to meet you.

Are you talking things through with your gp?

Jhalex14
05-04-19, 11:43 AM
Hello Mira.

I am and I asked to see an IAPT counselor but they fobbed me off and instead put me on a four week course in a group for low moods. It's not for me. I feel frustrated by all this.

OldMike
05-04-19, 11:48 AM
Hi welcome to DWD, I'm sure you'll find here a very friendly place.

Mira
05-04-19, 11:59 AM
I know how that can feel. But try seeing it this way. Give this a go. Even if you only pick up one thing. Its a win. And maybe the whole experience will help. And if not you can go back to your gp and talk things through.

I met with 4 different specialists before we found the right fit for my tiredness proplems.

Suzi
05-04-19, 12:49 PM
Hi and welcome. Mira is right. It's great you're talking to your GP, and I know this doesn't feel like it's helpful, but sometimes it's a case of doing 1 course then being referred elsewhere after.

Jhalex14
05-04-19, 02:07 PM
Hello and thanks for the warm welcome.

I will try this course for sure and see how it goes but regarding my possible BPD, I think I need an appointment to see a specialist regarding that. It is affecting my work. Currently I am on a medical discharge under investigation into possible gross misconduct. I will know the outcome of that by the end of this month.

Paula
05-04-19, 02:28 PM
Hi and welcome

Unfortunately, BPD can take time to diagnose and it’s often step by step so, yes definitely Mira is right, take this step and go from there.

I’m sorry about the investigation, are you able to tell us what happened? (Don’t worry if not)
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You will the support you need here (panda)

Jhalex14
05-04-19, 02:54 PM
Hello Paula.

Yes sure. What happened is I had 2 incidents at work within a month. Both times I lost my temper and swore and used abusive language and also raised my voice. One situation was with a supervisor and the other with a work colleague.

The problem is, the environment I worked in was a food production place and it was akin to a factory environment. Alot of the people who worked there had been there years and were used to behaving a certain way and getting away with or a blind eye being turned to it. As a newcomer to the workplace I felt that the older staff were neither patient with newcomers and also felt they could intimidate, boss around new staff like myself whilst also being abit of a skiver at the same time. The skiving mentality there was endemic and engrained.

With my stress levels and anxiety and possible BPD it was only a matter of time till I snapped and I did big time. I am not proud of my actions of course as it also portrays me as the bad guy and those individuals as victims.

I took measures to combat my stress by reducing my hrs there to part time, telling management and supervisors I was stressed and attending a stress management course also.

Paula
05-04-19, 03:03 PM
Are you doing a stress management course?

Jhalex14
05-04-19, 03:07 PM
Yes Paula I finished it back in February

Paula
05-04-19, 03:11 PM
Did it help at all?.

Jhalex14
05-04-19, 04:44 PM
Yes Paula, finished it in mid February

Whoops sorry, wrote that twice.

Hmmm, some of it was useful but overall no it didn't. I don't think it was what I needed.

Paula
05-04-19, 10:19 PM
Do you have any other courses available for you?

Jhalex14
06-04-19, 11:02 AM
Yes Paula, I am starting on a low mood one at the end of April, 4 sessions.

Suzi
06-04-19, 11:12 AM
That's great that you have that course to start...