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Jaquaia
19-10-18, 07:23 PM
I'm hiding in the private sections again and getting annoyed with myself for doing so! So hello! (hi)

Having one of those days today! Have a headache again. Feeling slightly stressed. Slightly on edge too. Trying to study and not got much further than catching up with the online collaborative study and replying to my tutors email...

On the plus side, my provisional application is ready to go to my friend to be signed.... eek!!!(sweat)

Suzi
19-10-18, 10:13 PM
Hello gorgeous!
Hope that you've managed to settle a bit love..

OldMike
19-10-18, 10:23 PM
Does part 673 have any significance, just intrigued (yup I'm a nosy bugger).

I'll just give a big HELLO Jaq (bear)

Jaquaia
19-10-18, 10:30 PM
I'm getting more wound up about certain things, so much so I've used the 'c' word to describe a certain person (blush). I'm going to have a quick chat with Rob and go to bed I think.


Does part 673 have any significance, just intrigued (yup I'm a nosy bugger).

I'll just give a big HELLO Jaq (bear)

Just what popped into my head!

Suzi
19-10-18, 10:32 PM
Hope you sleep well hunnipie x

Jaquaia
19-10-18, 11:14 PM
I'm looking at what's on in Hull next year and already excited by Macbeth by the National Theatre, Aida by Opera North and either Giselle or Cinderella by the Russian State Ballet of Siberia! Never seen a ballet before, I'm a bit of a Shakespeare fan and saw Opera North do Carmen and it was absolutely incredible!

Paula
19-10-18, 11:28 PM
Yay! Great to see you here, love :)

Suzi
20-10-18, 09:54 AM
I've been looking at stuff near here too! Again ballet, opera and musicals!
How are you today gorgeous?

Jaquaia
20-10-18, 10:53 AM
Tired and headachey again. Have not been stubborn today though and taken some paracetamol with my breakfast.

Paula
20-10-18, 02:40 PM
Good ;). Any better now? Are you drinking enough atm?

Jaquaia
20-10-18, 02:59 PM
A little. I fell asleep too which helped. Probably not. I've had half a bottle of water so far. It's ridiculous that I struggle so much with it. Even J has started getting bossy with me over how much (or should that be how little?) I'm drinking.

Paula
20-10-18, 04:49 PM
ok, do you mind then if I nag daily?

Jaquaia
20-10-18, 04:54 PM
Do I really have a choice? (giggle)

I'm on my second drink of the day, not great really

Paula
20-10-18, 05:44 PM
*naggingnotnagging* ;)

Jaquaia
20-10-18, 06:26 PM
I've had another drink!

Suzi
20-10-18, 08:42 PM
I thought you had alerts set each hour to remind you? If not, then set them up!!!! I'm constantly nagging H too! :)

Jaquaia
20-10-18, 09:08 PM
Erm....

Suzi
21-10-18, 01:03 PM
Jaq...

​DRINK?

Jaquaia
21-10-18, 01:11 PM
I have a glass of pepsi and a bottle of water with me! The trick now os to remember to take regular breaks to actually drink them!!!

Paula
21-10-18, 02:29 PM
Have you drunk them? If so, have you got more?

Jaquaia
21-10-18, 02:38 PM
I've drank about half a litre of water and most of the pepsi. That's good for me!!!

Suzi
22-10-18, 10:55 AM
Morning Jaq...

​DRINK?

OldMike
22-10-18, 10:56 AM
Morning Jaq...

​DRINK?

Best do what the Boss Lady says (rofl)

Jaquaia
22-10-18, 10:57 AM
I'm not sure what you're getting at Suzi? You might need to be a bit less subtle! (giggle)

Paula
22-10-18, 10:58 AM
So have you? Drunk something, that is? ;)

Jaquaia
22-10-18, 11:02 AM
I'm sipping on a bottle of water.

Suzi
22-10-18, 11:20 AM
Oh I'm sorry...
DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK

Jaquaia
22-10-18, 01:22 PM
(rofl)

Suzi
22-10-18, 02:59 PM
oo Jaq - have you had a drink recently?

Jaquaia
22-10-18, 03:19 PM
I have! Even had a cuppa soup for dinner!

Suzi
22-10-18, 07:39 PM
Not just a cuppa soup I hope...

Jaquaia
22-10-18, 07:47 PM
And a kiwi

Suzi
22-10-18, 08:58 PM
Is that what you've had for dinner?

Jaquaia
22-10-18, 09:14 PM
And a slice of bread. Don't forget up north where the normal people live, dinner is the midday meal ;)

Paula
23-10-18, 07:42 AM
Morning! Have you had anything to drink?

Jaquaia
23-10-18, 08:24 AM
Had a bit of water. Don't want to get up yet.

Suzi
23-10-18, 12:06 PM
And a slice of bread. Don't forget up north where the normal people live, dinner is the midday meal ;)
Ahhh, dinner is lunch... weirdos....

Jaquaia
23-10-18, 01:25 PM
Yep! (giggle)

OldMike
23-10-18, 03:22 PM
Ahhh, dinner is lunch... weirdos....

And tea is dinner and we ain't weird just different ;)

Flo
23-10-18, 04:01 PM
Whatever!........when I lived in Sheffield I had a hell of a job trying to understand the accents!.....my mate's favourite was...watcha got in yer snap box!.....Wot?! says I!!...work that one out!(rofl)

Jaquaia
23-10-18, 04:27 PM
Me and J have discussed having a chip van at our reception rather than a sit down posh meal when we get around to marrying. He finds it amusing that I want to serve our guests fried potato with fried potato and is looking forward to me explaining that (giggle) pattie and chips is a Hull staple!!! And bloody lovely!

Suzi
23-10-18, 09:15 PM
"Pattie and chips?"

Jaquaia
23-10-18, 09:18 PM
Patties are brilliant!!! It's mashed potato and sage and onion, shaped into a pattie and fried in batter. Really, really nice!

Suzi
23-10-18, 09:19 PM
Potato and stuffing? Hazel would love that!

Jaquaia
23-10-18, 09:24 PM
https://munchies-vice-com.cdn.ampproject.org/v/s/munchies.vice.com/amp/en_uk/article/43aa3b/hull-patties-are-the-deep-fried-potato-snack-everyone-should-know-about?amp_js_v=a2&amp_gsa=1&usqp=mq331AQCCAE%3D#referrer=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.goo gle.com&amp_tf=From%20%251%24s&ampshare=https%3A%2F%2Fmunchies.vice.com%2Fen_uk%2 Farticle%2F43aa3b%2Fhull-patties-are-the-deep-fried-potato-snack-everyone-should-know-about

It says beef dripping but when I make them at home I use vegetable or sunflower oil to fry them in

Suzi
23-10-18, 09:39 PM
Sounds really interesting... *wanders off to see how far away Hull is*

Paula
23-10-18, 10:47 PM
My arteries just hardened ;)

Jaquaia
24-10-18, 10:04 PM
So Friday I'm going to pay for my Counselling level 1... eek!!!

Strugglingmum
24-10-18, 10:13 PM
Ooooo exciting!! I did my level 2 counselling skills a few years ago I loved it and wanted to go on but my mum took sick and then died and then i got sick. You'll really enjoy it although it is challenging too. Stepping out doing something new.... awesome!! Congratulations and good luck. X

Jaquaia
24-10-18, 10:21 PM
Thank you! It's going to be hard work as I'm doing a Psychology and counselling degree at the same time!

Paula
24-10-18, 10:24 PM
Woohooooooooo awesome news!

Jaquaia
24-10-18, 10:31 PM
I've worked out that the level 1 will be finished in time fo me to start the level 2 in May...

Suzi
25-10-18, 09:20 AM
Don't push yourself too hard lovely...

Jaquaia
25-10-18, 09:26 AM
They're 7 week courses, one 3 hour session a week, so they will get me out of the house and meeting people too. The building is familiar as it's where I had my counselling! And assessment is a 1500 word essay, a 500 word self-reflection and work done in class and they've already told me that if it clashes with any uni assignments they can give me an extension.

OldMike
25-10-18, 09:31 AM
Patties are brilliant!!! It's mashed potato and sage and onion, shaped into a pattie and fried in batter. Really, really nice!

They sound good mmm email me some (giggle)

Suzi
25-10-18, 01:39 PM
They're 7 week courses, one 3 hour session a week, so they will get me out of the house and meeting people too. The building is familiar as it's where I had my counselling! And assessment is a 1500 word essay, a 500 word self-reflection and work done in class and they've already told me that if it clashes with any uni assignments they can give me an extension.
That's brilliant! I didn't realise you'd be getting out and meeting people with it too! Awesome! Go you! :)

Jaquaia
25-10-18, 01:47 PM
http://www.focuscounselling.co.uk/training.phtml

It's the counselling skills level 1 I'm going to be doing. Gestalt and person centred are new! May have to look into them once I have the basics learned!!! I can do levels 1-3 through this place and then the East Riding college in Beverley does the level 4 which will see me qualified to practise!

OldMike
25-10-18, 04:35 PM
Gestalt had to Google that it looks mighty complicated though I'm sure you'll master it Jaq ;)

Paula
25-10-18, 05:23 PM
Looks fab!

Angie
25-10-18, 09:06 PM
Looks really good and well done hunni x

Suzi
25-10-18, 11:18 PM
That's awesome!

Jaquaia
26-10-18, 07:33 PM
Flaring slightly so no uni work done today. I have wrapped most of the Christmas presents for my parents though! Just have Scarletts to do tomorrow. And bought lots of chocolate which was probably a mistake... not really caring today.

Paula
26-10-18, 07:51 PM
Wrapped Christmas presents. Really??

Jaquaia
26-10-18, 08:11 PM
Yep! My dad bought most of our presents at the beginning of the month and he's had Scarletts main present since June. I'm now settled down watching the model railway programme on 5! (nerd)

Suzi
26-10-18, 08:14 PM
Wow, that's super organised!

Jaquaia
26-10-18, 08:20 PM
He's already got my birthday presents sorted too! It may be a dangerous thing, me teaching him how to use Amazon...

Suzi
26-10-18, 08:25 PM
Wow! Go him!

Flo
27-10-18, 06:26 PM
He's already got my birthday presents sorted too! It may be a dangerous thing, me teaching him how to use Amazon...

Oh No!!.....he'll be another fully paid up member of the 'Quivering Finger over the 'Buy Now' button Club' like meeeee!!!..you try and pull your index finger away but the finger always wins!!! Aaaggghhh!!(rofl)

Suzi
27-10-18, 07:54 PM
How's today been lovely?

Jaquaia
27-10-18, 09:26 PM
It's been ok. Finished wrapping. Did some uni work. Watched Harry Potter and cried like a baby when Harry goes into the Great Hall after the Battle of Hogwarts. J rang as I was crying so took some explaining as he's never seen it!!! Flicked it on to +1, got tearful but fared a bit better until Snape...

"After all this time?"

"Always"

Every. Single. Time.

Paula
28-10-18, 08:42 AM
He hadn’t used Amazon, he hasn’t watched Harry Potter. Has he been sleeping under a rock for the last 20 years?? (rofl). Bless him, thank God he’s got you! You really need to do some educating ;)

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 09:40 AM
Oh my dad's watched Harry Potter! Had no choice really as my mum loves them! J's never seen them! Had to try explaining why I was crying without giving any spoilers!!!

OldMike
28-10-18, 10:33 AM
Think I've been living under half a rock for the last 20 years.

Watched the occasional Harry Potter movie and never really got it at all especially quiditch or whatever it was called (I know sad isn't it) (giggle)

But I have availed myself of the delights of Amazon ;)

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 12:19 PM
I've read the books so many times that you can barely read the title on the spines of the first 5 (they're paperbacks) and the pages are coming loose in my cope of The Philosophers Stone. I think the books give the stories so much depth and there are things that the films left out which should have been there. Some things aren't explained in the films.

Suzi
28-10-18, 12:46 PM
It's been ok. Finished wrapping. Did some uni work. Watched Harry Potter and cried like a baby when Harry goes into the Great Hall after the Battle of Hogwarts. J rang as I was crying so took some explaining as he's never seen it!!! Flicked it on to +1, got tearful but fared a bit better until Snape...

"After all this time?"

"Always"

Every. Single. Time.
And me. Every. Single. Time. And there have been plenty of times. Always more in the books though!


I've read the books so many times that you can barely read the title on the spines of the first 5 (they're paperbacks) and the pages are coming loose in my cope of The Philosophers Stone. I think the books give the stories so much depth and there are things that the films left out which should have been there. Some things aren't explained in the films.
I agree! I think there should have been an extended version of each movie that actually follows the books, rather than just the essence of them!

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 01:04 PM
Like how does Hermione, a muggle-born, know what a mudblood is? Why is she so upset about it when she's been in the wizarding world all of 5 minutes? I think they should have left that explanation to Ron, it would have made much more sense!

Suzi
28-10-18, 01:54 PM
Lol..... But it's all because she's read Hogwarts: A history more times than you think!

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 02:06 PM
But why would mudblood be in that? And why is there no explanation as to how Bill got hurt? And the night Dumbledore died was far too rushed!!!! They could have made that battle epic!!!! And no explanation as to how Bill and Fleur met! And.... and.... and....

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 02:54 PM
Made an apple crumble for after dinner, kitchen smells lovely and cinnamon-y now. I normally love baking and cooking but it was bloody stressful!!!!

"Have you got any lard? You're cutting the apples wrong, your nana did it like this. Are you peeling them? So and so didn't peel them..."

Ffs mother!!! Go away and let me make it my way!!!

Suzi
28-10-18, 04:05 PM
Oh! I sympathise! I've been baking too!

Fern's done a trial run for her food tech tomorrow because her teacher literally shouldn't be allowed in a kitchen... So I've made the homemade jam for her, backlava, vegan quichey thing, got everything ready for dinner and done all the washing up as I went along too! I'm knackered!

Hope you are resting and away from the stress love...

OldMike
28-10-18, 04:08 PM
Mums always think they know best (giggle)

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 04:27 PM
I'm studying mainly.

Paula
28-10-18, 05:03 PM
I've read the books so many times that you can barely read the title on the spines of the first 5 (they're paperbacks) and the pages are coming loose in my cope of The Philosophers Stone. I think the books give the stories so much depth and there are things that the films left out which should have been there. Some things aren't explained in the films.

Have you read them backwards? It really made me appreciate how much detail she put in the earlier books to lay up to events in the later ones!

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 05:09 PM
I haven't but I've taken a lot in. The look on my brothers face when I showed my mum the trailers for Crimes of Grindelwald and blurted out "hang on a minute! Dumbledore taught Transfiguration! Not Defence Against the Dark Arts!!!" (giggle)

Suzi
28-10-18, 07:49 PM
(rofl)(rofl) I did the same!

Jaquaia
28-10-18, 07:54 PM
It really bugged me!!!

Jaquaia
30-10-18, 12:28 AM
OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!!!! I'm actually speechless!!!!

I've got my module result. I only went and got a distinction!!! 85 on my examinable score and 89 on my continuous assessment....

OldMike
30-10-18, 09:56 AM
I haven't but I've taken a lot in. The look on my brothers face when I showed my mum the trailers for Crimes of Grindelwald and blurted out "hang on a minute! Dumbledore taught Transfiguration! Not Defence Against the Dark Arts!!!" (giggle)

Isn't "Transfiguration" a subset of "Defence Against the Dark Arts"!!!? just saying (rofl)


OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!!!! I'm actually speechless!!!!

I've got my module result. I only went and got a distinction!!! 85 on my examinable score and 89 on my continuous assessment....

WooooooooooHoooooooooo (party)

Suzi
30-10-18, 10:39 AM
Woohoo!! Well done lovely!

Paula
30-10-18, 10:54 AM
(party) you’re incredible! I never doubted you :)

Jaquaia
30-10-18, 11:39 AM
I'm still trying to figure out how I managed to pull that off!!! I never in a million years thought I would do that well!!!

Suzi
30-10-18, 02:08 PM
You need to have even a shred of the faith in you that we all have in you.

Paula
30-10-18, 02:55 PM
I knew you would!

Flo
30-10-18, 04:39 PM
Well done Jaq!!

Angie
30-10-18, 10:22 PM
Way to go hunni x

Suzi
31-10-18, 09:51 AM
How are you today lovely?

Jaquaia
31-10-18, 12:37 PM
I'm ok

Suzi
31-10-18, 02:33 PM
That doesn't sound good....

Jaquaia
31-10-18, 02:47 PM
I'm headachey and feeling flat, really missing J and have an assignment due in next week and am a week behind because of flare ups....

Suzi
31-10-18, 03:26 PM
Then you aren't "OK" are you? (panda)

Can you take something for the headache? Or maybe rest? I know you are behind, but sometimes just stopping and resting in the short term can make things easier and better in the long term..

When do you see J next?

Jaquaia
31-10-18, 04:02 PM
You know what I'm like, everyone else has so much going on that my problems pale into insignificance. And yes, I know what I would tell people..

I'm slowly plodding through my chapter and feel like I'm getting somewhere, slowly but I am getting there!!!

It won't be until Monday. It's half-term and she hasn't moved out yet so it's difficult this week, but he did make a point of coming to see me yesterday, even though it was only for 20 minutes.(inlove)

Suzi
31-10-18, 08:43 PM
Oh love. I wish it wasn't like this for you, but it won't be forever.

Jaquaia
31-10-18, 08:52 PM
That's what I keep telling myself

Paula
31-10-18, 10:21 PM
He loves you, it will be ok xx

Jaquaia
31-10-18, 10:43 PM
I know. I never doubt that :)

Jaquaia
03-11-18, 08:10 PM
My mum only let the dog out!!! Not happy! :@

Paula
03-11-18, 10:12 PM
Oh no! What happened to her (the dog not your mum)?!

Jaquaia
03-11-18, 10:17 PM
She's been really unsettled so dosed her up on chill drops and she's now snoring her head off on my bed. Can't believe she let her out though!!!

Suzi
03-11-18, 10:34 PM
Ours are dosed up too. This is horrible! Ours won't go out thankfully x

Jaquaia
03-11-18, 10:38 PM
They seem louder this year!

Suzi
03-11-18, 10:43 PM
The ones round here really are. They've made our windows shake and everything!

Paula
03-11-18, 11:04 PM
Polo’s ok but Luna was always completely and utterly terrified. At least she’s spared that this year :(

Jaquaia
03-11-18, 11:09 PM
(panda)

Suzi
04-11-18, 10:52 AM
We were in the same position with Casey... (panda)

Flo
05-11-18, 11:01 AM
I know I'm a kill-joy, but I'd have them banned! After all, when all said and done they're bloody explosives! Anything to make money eh?

Jaquaia
05-11-18, 09:47 PM
Avoiding writing my essay.... not good as it's due in tomorrow...

Suzi
05-11-18, 09:58 PM
How much more do you have to write?

Jaquaia
05-11-18, 10:11 PM
About 170 words. I've done the 2nd and 3rd part of it and this one is only 200 words.

Paula
06-11-18, 08:56 AM
How did the essay go last night?

Jaquaia
06-11-18, 09:25 AM
I gave up. I'm going to get up, shower and have breakfast and start again

Suzi
06-11-18, 11:24 AM
How goes it?

Jaquaia
06-11-18, 11:28 AM
Eaten, medicated, showered... next step is clothes and then get back to it!

Suzi
06-11-18, 11:33 AM
Woohoo! Go you!

Paula
06-11-18, 11:44 AM
Drink?

Jaquaia
06-11-18, 11:45 AM
Erm... I will refresh my water before I start

Jaquaia
06-11-18, 03:05 PM
Done and submitted!

Paula
06-11-18, 05:10 PM
(party)

Drink? ;)

Jaquaia
06-11-18, 05:33 PM
Working on it! Got engrossed in catching up!

Suzi
06-11-18, 06:11 PM
Wow! Drink? Well done love! Drink??
Hope you are rewarding yourself with something lovely! Drink???

Jaquaia
06-11-18, 07:12 PM
I'm not quite sure what you're getting at Suzi... you may have to be a bit less subtle... (giggle)

I've had some. I've ordered take away so didn't have to cook and J is on his way over (inlove)

OldMike
06-11-18, 07:49 PM
Wow! Drink? Well done love! Drink??
Hope you are rewarding yourself with something lovely! Drink???

Do by any chance you mean DRINK because I'm not quite getting it (giggle)

Suzi
06-11-18, 09:06 PM
I'm not quite sure what you're getting at Suzi... you may have to be a bit less subtle... (giggle)

I've had some. I've ordered take away so didn't have to cook and J is on his way over (inlove)
WooDRINKhoo!! Have a lovely evening!

Jaquaia
06-11-18, 10:37 PM
He's just left, missing him already. We just cuddled up and watched a couple of episodes of Torchwood. It was so nice to be able to do a nice normal coupley thing like that without any worry.

Suzi
06-11-18, 11:19 PM
That sounds lovely and normal.... Pleased for you love.

Paula
07-11-18, 09:05 AM
Morning, lovely. drink?

Jaquaia
07-11-18, 09:40 AM
I will when I get up. I promise

Suzi
07-11-18, 10:22 AM
Morning gorgeous, what are you DRINKing this morning?

Jaquaia
07-11-18, 01:12 PM
I've had some water and have blueberry muffin milk too

Suzi
07-11-18, 03:02 PM
WTF is blueberry muffin milk?

OO drink?

How are you today gorgeous lady?

Jaquaia
07-11-18, 03:42 PM
https://goo.gl/images/mbB79v

Just been drinking that.

I'm ok. Could have gone out for lunch with my mum, dad, sister and niece but I'd rather stay home and study and I get to see J for an hour-ish so yay!

Allalone
07-11-18, 04:25 PM
I’m using the forum as a distraction.
Hope you don’t mind me commenting on your post.

Do you forget to drink?!

I’ve never seen that in my local Asda. My kids would love it!

What are you studying?

Paula
07-11-18, 05:37 PM
Ooo yuck! ;)

Drink?

Jaquaia
07-11-18, 05:46 PM
I’m using the forum as a distraction.
Hope you don’t mind me commenting on your post.

Do you forget to drink?!

I’ve never seen that in my local Asda. My kids would love it!

What are you studying?

I don't mind at all! I'm terrible for drinking. That's why these ladies nag me. It's nothing for me to only have a mouthful of water to take my meds with until teatime. This is really nice! Not overly sweet or fake tasting like some of the other flavours are.

I'm doing a BSc in Psychology with Counselling through the OU. Started it in February and just handed in my first assignment on my second module.


Ooo yuck! ;)

Drink?

Still on the milkshake but only got an inch left in the bottle now.

Allalone
07-11-18, 06:04 PM
That sounds really interesting, the course not the milkshake! I don’t tolerate dairy very well but my 3 love milkshakes and blueberry muffins so think they would like it.
I like a strong cup of tea in the morning and a cup of chamomile in an evening but probably don’t have that much to drink in between.

Jaquaia
07-11-18, 06:52 PM
I don't think I've had a single cup of tea this year! I've started going off it.

Paula
07-11-18, 08:09 PM
That sounds really interesting, the course not the milkshake! I don’t tolerate dairy very well but my 3 love milkshakes and blueberry muffins so think they would like it.
I like a strong cup of tea in the morning and a cup of chamomile in an evening but probably don’t have that much to drink in between.

Do we need to start nagging you too? ;)

Allalone
07-11-18, 09:10 PM
Ha ha.
I don’t think so. The home treatment team are doing plenty of that.

Suzi
07-11-18, 10:38 PM
I'm excellent at "repetitive reminders" - ask my husband and children! (rofl)(rofl)
Jaq that drink isn't one I'd try (even without the dairy) but if it's making you drink add some more next time you go shopping!

Jaquaia
07-11-18, 11:06 PM
It took me all day to drink it though J spent most of his time here trying to get me to tell him while I was upset so barely touched his drink so had that too.

Strugglingmum
07-11-18, 11:50 PM
I was at the optician today and when she looked at the photos of the back of my eyes she told me I needed to drink more water! Seriously, how can they do that.
It's true I don't drink half enough and have been known to swallow my tablets dry. I know , very naughty.

Paula
07-11-18, 11:51 PM
Last year, my optician picked something up which led to diagnoses of high blood pressure and fluid on my brain! It’s incredible what they can find in your eyes!

Jaq, why upset, lovely?

Suzi
08-11-18, 12:20 AM
Jaq, what was making you upset love?

SM - yes! Very naughty!

Jaquaia
08-11-18, 12:50 AM
It's nothing hugely important, just me overreacting.

Paula
08-11-18, 08:57 AM
Hmmmm

Suzi
08-11-18, 10:33 AM
It's nothing hugely important, just me overreacting.
It doesn't really matter if you are overreacting. If it's upset you then it IS hugely important...

How are you today lovely?

Jaquaia
08-11-18, 11:04 AM
I'm not really caring about much today, couldn't even be bothered to shower this morning. Planning on plodding through my uni work, meeting J in town on Monday so going to go and park myself in Costa and start next weeks reading. Maybe it will give me the kick I need to start going out and studying more.

Suzi
08-11-18, 11:21 AM
So you were upset yesterday and not feeling much today - want to talk about it?

Jaquaia
08-11-18, 02:31 PM
This week's work is personality theories and one study they spend all of one sentence explaining is discussed in greater detail in one of my previous modules textbooks. A good proportion of us studied DD102 so a good proportion of us will have access to the aforementioned textbook, so I decided to share this and made a point of saying it will only be of use to those who studied that module. Only to be told by one of the tutors that those who didn't study the module won't have access to the book. No (swear)(swear)(swear)(swear) sherlock! Hence me pointing out the module it appeared in!

I just won't bloody bother contributing anymore

Suzi
08-11-18, 10:51 PM
Don't let one arse spoil it for you love.

Jaquaia
08-11-18, 11:02 PM
I'm just having a bit of a bad day.

Suzi
08-11-18, 11:29 PM
I'd have felt upset too.. (panda)

Jaquaia
08-11-18, 11:38 PM
I can tell it's been a bad day as I've been in tears a couple of times and ended up falling asleep this afternoon. Not even attempted doing any more work tonight, just watched Fantastic Beasts instead

Suzi
08-11-18, 11:57 PM
Oh love, why didn't you text or call? I hate that you've been feeling like that on your own...

Jaquaia
09-11-18, 12:06 AM
Stubborness? Don't like putting on people when they have so much going on themselves? Nothing anyone can really do? I don't know... not used to physically reaching out to people

Paula
09-11-18, 09:01 AM
Well get used it, kid (Kiss)

Suzi
09-11-18, 09:42 AM
But you'd hate it if any of us didn't talk about what was going on... Friendship works both ways.

Jaquaia
09-11-18, 10:50 AM
Yes but I don't think I'm as important as everyone else

Paula
09-11-18, 11:22 AM
You really are! You’re so important

Jaquaia
09-11-18, 12:05 PM
I've never really felt like I am.

I'm tired today and sore. I must have slept funny as it hurts to look anywhere but directly in front. Even looking to my right I can feel the left side of my neck pulling. I've showered, which has eased it a little, and I have a fresh bottle of water upstairs with me before you all tell me off! And I've already drank a good inch :P

Just have various things on my mind but going to distract myself with work.

Suzi
09-11-18, 12:15 PM
Maybe you need to believe that we believe that you are important?!

I hope the pains ease a bit love... Talk about what's in your head, get the evil weevils out... it might help?

Jaquaia
09-11-18, 01:01 PM
I'm going to take some ibuprofen and see if that helps.

One of the things is my brother and sister. J came to see me Friday night and he just walks in the house without knocking. My mum told him to just walk in nearly a year ago now but my brother hasn't been here when he's arrived before and was a bit taken aback by it. Instead of sending me a quick text asking why he just walks in, he went to my sister bitching about it, who then took it on herself to stick her nose in and go telling tales to my mum. My mums put her straight but I don't know how much my brother has told her as when my mum asked her what she said to him, it was apparently that she wasn't interested in anyone in my life. I find that incredibly hurtful. She says it's because she tried to take an interest last time and look what happened and this way nothing can go wrong, but she behaved like a spoilt brat last time. She decided she didn't like him and she wasn't going to make even the smallest effort to even be polite. It raised a lot of bad memories, about that, my so-called best friends betrayal. And I'm now wondering if I can even trust my brother.

Suzi
09-11-18, 03:42 PM
I'd be really upset too. That sounds like a horrible situation to be in. Families are so difficult to deal with...

Jaquaia
09-11-18, 03:58 PM
Everything just seems to have happened at once which is why I have posts all over the forum today.

Suzi
09-11-18, 05:24 PM
(panda)(panda)(panda)

Jaquaia
09-11-18, 06:06 PM
I've just told J everything, and I mean everything. I feel better for having done so too. I don't know why I try and hide how I'm feeling from him, he sees through it instantly, I guess part of me is scared he'll decide he's had enough and walk away...

Allalone
09-11-18, 07:10 PM
Well done you!
That’s a massive step you’ve taken. I know how hard it is to open up to someone close.

Strugglingmum
09-11-18, 07:23 PM
Sending you big hugs. Xx

Paula
09-11-18, 07:55 PM
(panda) sweetheart. Thank you for being honest with us and J, I know how tough that is for you

Angie
09-11-18, 09:47 PM
(bear)

Suzi
09-11-18, 10:14 PM
That's awesome! I'm proud of you! What did he say?

Jaquaia
09-11-18, 10:41 PM
He asked why I hadn't told him any of it and why I'd tried to hide the bit I did tell him. He said when I try and hide things I'm not being me and he can usually tell in seconds. He also revealed he's been reading up a lot on PCOS so he can try and understand how it affects me, and not just the medical stuff but blogs by women affected by it. That made me pretty emotional as no one has ever made that kind of effort for me before, ever.

Suzi
09-11-18, 11:00 PM
Good. I'm glad.

Strugglingmum
09-11-18, 11:37 PM
How special is that. He obviously cares about you a lot. Xx

Jaquaia
11-11-18, 07:28 PM
As corny as it sounds, he's the love of my life. He's seen me at my worst and yet embraces everything about me, he's the only man I've ever really felt completely safe with. He texted me earlier to tell me we're having a day out a week on Wednesday. Only realised about half an hour ago that it's my birthday and it almost made me cry! No one has ever taken me out on my birthday before! And he's said we're visiting old bookshops! How can I not love someone who takes me to bookshops?

Suzi
11-11-18, 07:36 PM
He's a definite keeper! I'm so glad he's going to spoil you a bit! You definitely deserve it!

Jaquaia
11-11-18, 07:43 PM
You will definitely need hats ;)

Strugglingmum
11-11-18, 08:53 PM
As corny as it sounds, he's the love of my life. He's seen me at my worst and yet embraces everything about me, he's the only man I've ever really felt completely safe with. He texted me earlier to tell me we're having a day out a week on Wednesday. Only realised about half an hour ago that it's my birthday and it almost made me cry! No one has ever taken me out on my birthday before! And he's said we're visiting old bookshops! How can I not love someone who takes me to bookshops?

Awk. You're gonna make me cry. He is definitely a special find. Xxx
Just what you deserve. Xx

Suzi
11-11-18, 10:59 PM
You will definitely need hats ;)
Damn right I need a hat! :)

Paula
12-11-18, 08:58 AM
You will definitely need hats ;)

I don’t do hats. Is that a must?

Jaquaia
12-11-18, 09:29 AM
Nope! You'll look fabulously glam without! (Kiss)

I'm going to head into town this morning...

ON MY OWN!!!!!!!!! :o

Not been into town since I met Venkat!

Suzi
12-11-18, 10:46 AM
What are you going to do in town? Have fun!

OldMike
12-11-18, 10:53 AM
I don’t do hats. Is that a must?

Yup you gotta wear a hat or maybe a fascinator ;)

Jaquaia
12-11-18, 10:54 AM
I'm meeting J then I'm not sure. I'm actually pretty proud of myself! I'm feeling a little anxious but it's manageable :)

Paula
12-11-18, 11:00 AM
I’m actually pretty proud of you too!

And, Mike, I don’t do fascinators either lol

Suzi
12-11-18, 11:40 AM
I'm really proud of you too! You're awesome!

Jaquaia
12-11-18, 11:47 AM
I'm currently sat in costa reading and drinking black forest hot chocolate. J is in the office applying for some jobs a bit closer to home then where he's being transferred so I may have to start working my way through the christmas menu (rofl)

Suzi
12-11-18, 12:06 PM
Good for you!

Strugglingmum
12-11-18, 04:47 PM
Wow. Town on your own. I'm impressed. Love Christmas coffee. Enjoy. X

Jaquaia
12-11-18, 06:10 PM
It's been a really lovely day! Breakfast and lunch out. The nutella croissant is lush and I think the caramelised orange and cream hot chocolate is my new favourite!

It felt like we didn't have to hide today, it was absolutely lovely and felt like a proper couple-y lunch out. Then just spent a couple of hours cuddled up at home talking and laughing and he even had a proper conversation with my dad!!!! AND!!!!!! Date night tomorrow!!!!!! And he reminded me to leave next Wednesday free! (inlove)

I feel really peaceful and content tonight but missing him already.

Strugglingmum
12-11-18, 07:00 PM
Fantastic. Xx

Angie
12-11-18, 07:42 PM
Glad that you have had a good day hunni x

Suzi
12-11-18, 08:28 PM
It's been a really lovely day! Breakfast and lunch out. The nutella croissant is lush and I think the caramelised orange and cream hot chocolate is my new favourite!

It felt like we didn't have to hide today, it was absolutely lovely and felt like a proper couple-y lunch out. Then just spent a couple of hours cuddled up at home talking and laughing and he even had a proper conversation with my dad!!!! AND!!!!!! Date night tomorrow!!!!!! And he reminded me to leave next Wednesday free! (inlove)

I feel really peaceful and content tonight but missing him already.
That's such a wonderful post!!!!!

OldMike
12-11-18, 08:39 PM
Black forest hot chocolate the other day and caramelised orange and cream hot chocolate today you lucky girl ;) I'm so glad you've had a lovely day out :)

Jaquaia
12-11-18, 08:41 PM
AND!!!!!!!!

Got my first assignment back, lowest score so far, 78 ;)

Not overly keen on how this tutor marks compared to my last tutor, there is masses of blue text all over my assignment...


Black forest hot chocolate the other day and caramelised orange and cream hot chocolate today you lucky girl ;) I'm so glad you've had a lovely day out :)

They were both today Mike ;)

Paula
12-11-18, 10:12 PM
What a lovely day:)

Suzi
12-11-18, 10:28 PM
That's a great positive from a new tutor! Well done!

Jaquaia
12-11-18, 10:40 PM
I'm feeling really happy and excited today. It's all been positive! I mean town by myself and sitting in a coffee shop on my own reading for a couple of hours AND feeling comfortable with it... unheard of! And really excited about date night tomorrow as I've never had an actual, proper date! EVER!!!

Suzi
12-11-18, 11:38 PM
I'm so thrilled for you!

Jaquaia
13-11-18, 09:52 AM
Oh! And I forgot!!! My provisional arrived yesterday too!!!

Suzi
13-11-18, 12:44 PM
Wow! Have you booked some driving lessons?

How are you doing today?

Jaquaia
13-11-18, 01:01 PM
It only got posted off a week ago so it's been really quick!!!! Not yet, thinking of starting after Christmas then I can try and save some money and give myself chance to swot up a bit on the highway code.

I'm actually pretty good!!! Giddy and excited as tonight is date night and I've never been on an actual proper date before! I can't wait!!!! (inlove)

Strugglingmum
13-11-18, 02:24 PM
Woohoo!!!
Sounds fantastic huni. Have a blast. Xx

Suzi
13-11-18, 03:44 PM
Happy Date night day!

Have you been drinking properly - ok, well up to Suzi and Paula standard.... ???

Paula
13-11-18, 03:47 PM
Oooohh I’ve been lax in my duties ...... DRINK!!

Having gone through driving lessons with my girls, I can assure you your instructor won’t expect you to know the Highway Code on your first lesson (rofl)

Jaquaia
13-11-18, 06:47 PM
Probably no where near what I should have had!

I'm actually nervous...

Suzi
13-11-18, 07:48 PM
Hope you're having a great time x

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 10:01 AM
I had an absolutely wonderful evening! We went for pizza, didn't actually check what films were on or what time they started until we got there, was going to go see Bohemian Rhapsody but it didn't start til nearly 9 and J was tired, so we just ate and talked and smiled a lot and then went back to mine to snuggle up while we watched some Dr Who. It was absolutely perfect (inlove)

Paula
14-11-18, 10:10 AM
Awww that sounds perfect :)

Suzi
14-11-18, 10:25 AM
That does sound like a perfect evening lovely! How are you today?

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 12:04 PM
I'm actually ok but I am really missing him.

Being with J has made me realise quite a few things. I'm worthy of being loved for who I am, and not need to change and that someone who truly loves you is there for the bad times as well as the good. I often think that my insecurities will push him away but he always tells me that they are part of who I am. Part of me wishes I'd realised it a long time ago but then my life would have been different and I wouldn't have met J again.

Strugglingmum
14-11-18, 01:45 PM
Aw huni. What a fantastic evening and what a wonderful guy. You totally deserve to be loved for who you are and I'm so happy you have someone who does that. Xx

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 02:29 PM
Thank you! I'm not completely convinced that I deserve him but we seem to be really good for each other. :)

Suzi
14-11-18, 06:46 PM
How are you doing today lovely?

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 07:10 PM
I'm ok but a bit irritable. Spent a couple of hours with J this morning which was lovely. But started flaring and trying to read and my dad keeps taking to me.

Paula
14-11-18, 07:35 PM
I really hope you do remember that you are worthy of being loved! Not that we’ve been trying to tell you that for a while or anything ;)

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 07:40 PM
Have you? You must have been really subtle about it then! (giggle)

Suzi
14-11-18, 07:47 PM
Sorry your Dad is being a tw8t! When are you seeing J next?

Strugglingmum
14-11-18, 07:49 PM
Have you? You must have been really subtle about it then! (giggle)

(giggle)

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 07:54 PM
Sorry your Dad is being a tw8t! When are you seeing J next?

Friday morning. I can't wait (inlove)

Suzi
14-11-18, 07:59 PM
Not too long then? Brilliant!
How's it going with him being in the house and her and the children not living together?

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 09:06 PM
He's a lot less on edge. She has some more stuff to move out, she was supposed to be doing it on sunday but her mum was meant to be helping and wasn't very well. His mum is just waiting for her to hand her key over and she's planning on gutting the house, in fact, she's already spoken to a joiner about replacing the kitchen! And he said last night about us needing to build a home together, nevermind whose name is on the mortgage (inlove)

Suzi
14-11-18, 09:38 PM
​Awwww! You don't deserve anything less!

Jaquaia
14-11-18, 09:51 PM
I just struggle to believe how lucky I am.

Strugglingmum
14-11-18, 10:07 PM
Hey, he is lucky too! Everyone deserves to find love. Xxxx

Suzi
15-11-18, 09:32 AM
AM is right! He's really lucky to have found someone as kind, funny, generous, lovely, loving, intelligent, supportive, loyal and an all round fantastic human as you!!!!

Jaquaia
15-11-18, 10:07 AM
Awwwww! You'll make me cry!

Suzi
15-11-18, 10:25 AM
Don't mean to make you cry, but hope that at some point you'll start seeing yourself positively!

Jaquaia
15-11-18, 11:06 AM
It's spending time around you and Paula, it's rubbing off on me (oo-er!) (giggle)

I frequently tell J that I'm awesome! The problem is, it's me being sarcastic!

Paula
15-11-18, 02:02 PM
I like to think I’m an influential human being (rofl)(rofl)

Jaquaia
15-11-18, 02:07 PM
Most definitely (Kiss)

Suzi
15-11-18, 02:18 PM
Woohoo, I'm an influential person too!!

Jaquaia
15-11-18, 03:03 PM
You certainly are!!!!

Urgh! I really do detest that bloody woman! Apparently she's told him that he can have a relationship with anyone except me and if she finds out he's seeing me then he will never see the children again...

Paula
15-11-18, 04:18 PM
Lovely, the only reason she says it is because she knows it gets to him. So he’s going to have to pretend it doesn’t get to him - tough, I know, but ‘bitch’ is the only emotion she recognises .....

Jaquaia
15-11-18, 04:31 PM
He actually came out and told her that she can't do that. She's even looking at stopping T having a cab ride over the Christmas holidays just because J's friend is organising it. She's punishing the children because her facade has been shattered and she doesn't like that people have seen her true colours. Or that's what I think anyway.

Suzi
15-11-18, 07:43 PM
I think you're probably right. I hope he's keeping a diary of everything....

Jaquaia
15-11-18, 08:10 PM
He is. I make sure of that

Suzi
15-11-18, 09:00 PM
Good!

Jaquaia
16-11-18, 11:16 PM
Woohoo! Stella visit tomorrow!

Suzi
17-11-18, 10:37 AM
Hope you have a great time! Give her a hug from me!

Jaquaia
17-11-18, 10:49 AM
Nope. She's woken up not feeling well so maybe tomorrow. And you know she doesn't hug! (giggle)