Hello

[Mango]

Hi I'm new not really sure what to say. Just struggling with depression and loneliness

[S deleted]

Hi mango and welcome to DWD

[Mango]

Thanks

[S deleted]

Tell us a bit about yourself. Where are from? What sort of support structure do you have if any?

[Paula]

Hi and welcome. Take your time to have a look round the forum and jum0 in whenever you feel comfortable

[Mango]

Thanks guys. I don't have a support structure it's just me. I have three sons two married and one who lives with me and has Aspergers so no empathy there
I work full time supporting unpaid carers so it's a tough job and I'm struggling with it
I'm in England and my parents live in the USA. I won't bother them as they are elderly
So I spend most of my time in bed hiding from the world. I haven't spoken to anyone since Friday
I don't really have any friends just people I know and I feel this weekend is crunch time

[TiffanyyO]

So great to have you here Mango :)
You will have tons of support here with us.

[Mango]

Thank you it's good to know there's people out there who understand

[TiffanyyO]

Thank you it's good to know there's people out there who understand

:) more than you know.
I have found such peace in being part of this forum. I've never been around so many people who truly understand and know exactly what you feel on a daily basis.

[Mango]

That's great to hear. I'm sure people think I have a good life job house great kids but it's hard work putting on that mask every day

[TiffanyyO]

I completely get that Mango, 100%

[Paula]

Thanks guys. I don't have a support structure it's just me. I have three sons two married and one who lives with me and has Aspergers so no empathy there
I work full time supporting unpaid carers so it's a tough job and I'm struggling with it
I'm in England and my parents live in the USA. I won't bother them as they are elderly
So I spend most of my time in bed hiding from the world. I haven't spoken to anyone since Friday
I don't really have any friends just people I know and I feel this weekend is crunch time

If this weekend is crunch time, I’m very glad you found us cos we’re pretty good crunch busters ;)

[TiffanyyO]

If this weekend is crunch time, I’m very glad you found us cos we’re pretty good crunch busters

agreed

[Suzi]

Hi and welcome to DWD!
Sweetheart it sounds like you're dealing with a huge amount which is emotional and really tough especially if you can't talk things over. (bear)

[Mango]

I've always been a coper I raised my boys by myself and until last year was fine. Work suddenly got very busy and I just couldn't cope. I was given antidepressants by my gp but like a fool didn't take them thinking I'd pull myself together.
I have tried all the usual things going out. I teach salsa and go dancing twice a week for fun but I go on my own spend most of my time there on my own and leave alone. I don't seem to be able to make friends partly due to my childhood. We moved around a bit so making friends was really a waste of time. So I just have people I know
I work in this field and advise people all the time which is why I don't get how I got myself in this situation

[TiffanyyO]

I've always been a coper I raised my boys by myself and until last year was fine. Work suddenly got very busy and I just couldn't cope. I was given antidepressants by my gp but like a fool didn't take them thinking I'd pull myself together.
I have tried all the usual things going out. I teach salsa and go dancing twice a week for fun but I go on my own spend most of my time there on my own and leave alone. I don't seem to be able to make friends partly due to my childhood. We moved around a bit so making friends was really a waste of time. So I just have people I know
I work in this field and advise people all the time which is why I don't get how I got myself in this situation

*hugs* you seem to be struggling a lot huh? my heart breaks for you. I hope by being here you feel a little better. :) you have so much support now.

[Paula]

Have you been back to your doctor?

[Mango]

No I haven't been back it's like admitting defeat

[Mango]

I have fought for so long to keep a roof over my boys heads keep them in school etc I thought this would be my time.
Things haven't quite worked out how I planned. I'm in debt have no electric downstairs my washing machine is broken �� I'm tired of fighting
Sorry for going on and on

[TiffanyyO]

Its best to get it all off your chest Mango *hugs*

[Mango]

Thanks but at the moment I can't get my head around everything. I can't work out how I got in this mess and I just can't seem to find the a way out. Big thanks for the hugs

[S deleted]

Hey that’s why this place is here, to talk about things. It sounds pretty tough at the moment for you. I can relate to what you so about going out and being alone. Like you’re going through the motions but not really engaging with anyone. Leaves you feeling lonely. What’s happened with the electrics? Could it be a fuse?

[Suzi]

Just let it all out as soon as you feel comfortable. I promise you will only find support here.

[Mango]

Thanks for the hugs

[Paula]

No I haven't been back it's like admitting defeat

I prefer to see it as taking the first step to recovery. To getting back control

[Mango]

The loo was leaking and I didn't realise the insurance company said I should have maintained my property which is fair enough. It happened before and it once it dried out it was OK but now nothing. I'm not an electrician so I've been trying to save up but as soon as I'm my wages go into the bank they're gone. The washing machine is old so needs replacing. All of this this is sortable eventually.

[Mango]

Yes that's what I'd tell my clients. I'm worried that if I go back it'll be on my medical records and impact my job prospects should I lose this job

[Suzi]

Oh hunni! Have you tried asking for help on something like "helpful people" or your local groups on facebook? People are often much more lovely than you think they are going to be...

[Paula]

How are you doing?