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I think that I will need to cancel courses but I cant get my head to work enough to be able to figure out who I need to contact and how.
Is that something that H could help with? Or your friend?
magie06
05-10-15, 07:21 PM
Well done on going to your gp. I understand that it was very difficult thing for you to do, but you were able to go. I'm glad that H went with you when you went. I don't know what you can do about cancelling your classes. Maybe your friend can help here. Try not to cancel too many of them, you don't know how you will feel later in the week.
I was going to ask if your friend can take some classes? You may lose the money, but you'll keep the classes going and your reputation intact
I am so glad you saw the doctor and got some more Lorazepam and a pdoc referral. I think that was far more than you expected and I think it was the right thing to happen.
Why do you feel you have to cancel the courses?
Neither of the friend that help out have the knowledge or experience to run them. I have cancelled the two most stressful (and least profitable) which are the home ed classes. I felt that I was in danger if I ran them of losing my cool and snapping at the kids. I will see home the adult pottery goes tomorrow. Its a nice easy class that brings in quite a bit of revenue and most of the evening they will be working on their own things and they know where stuff is so I dont have to wait on them hand and foot like the kids classes.
Tried to do a bit of mandala drawing tonight but failed miserably. started trying out the idea of Zentangle but the urges to self harm became overwhelming so I have zentangled my arms..... quite a challenge drawing fine patterns on your right arm with your left hand when you are right handed. If I do get to see the pdoc (and I am not holding my breath here!) I wonder what she will think? Come to that wonder what my customers will think!
That sounds like a great distraction (and I imagine it looks awesome)
Now got fish swimming up my left leg. Contemplating a dragon up my right. Its just about keeping the self harming feelings in check!
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05-10-15, 10:54 PM
Hey if its working great. Sounds really impressive
They are not really.
http://s1009.photobucket.com/user/penny_price1/slideshow/human%20zentangle
S deleted
05-10-15, 11:56 PM
haha they look wicked, zentangle tats, lol
I think they will wash off in the shower in the morning.
S deleted
06-10-15, 01:20 AM
or you hope so, lol
Did they wash off? They look awesome.
magie06
06-10-15, 08:27 AM
The look fabulous Pen, I couldn't do anything like that. My squiggles are just that, squiggles. No form or anything resembling anything known to man or beast!
I dont think most of mine resembled anything known to man or beast either! They came off in the shower. Well most of them did, some bits I highlighted in red biro and now I have the odd red patch up my arms. I did not scrub the fish on my leg and so although they are faded a bit they are still there.
magie06
06-10-15, 09:51 AM
Pity they came off so soon. They would have made fabulous tattoos, and I'm not into tattoos.
How are you feeling today Pen? Any better?
They're amazing! And a wonderful distraction. My daughter does henna tats regularly on her hands and arms and I can never get how it's so pretty and exact to do something with one hand
No not feeling great. Doing the drawing helped at the time but as soon as I stopped things got bad again. Managed to get out for coffee with my best friend who could see how bad I was. I had planned to go to the art sale today at my old college but could not face it so went into The Range instead. Which to be honest was probably the cheaper option. I also managed to get into town and pay the last two weeks takings in so the account does not look quite so desperate!
The drawings you did were amazing, shame they washed off! I wonder, have you stumbled across a good way to fight SH urges?
What else do you have to do today, it sounds like you've got a lot done already.
Certainly it did help. I think that making contact with the skin in a repetitive way may have been comforting in a primevil way, as well as the drawing technique keeping my mind occupied.
I have a pottery class tonight so I have to think sometime today about what we will do, however in the meantime I am drawing a christmas card...
Yes I wonder if its just enough contact with the skin to fulfill the urge without actually hurting yourself.
Make sure you have a proper lunch and maybe a nap? Just to recharge your batteries a bit.
magie06
06-10-15, 05:12 PM
Have a nap please, you will need your energy for the class this evening.
I still think they looked fab!
Hope things have brightened up for you a bit lovely...
Very tired so I am going to have a lie down for half an hour. I have 7 people coming this evening....
I hope that you have had rest hun and that its helped x
Very tired so I am going to have a lie down for half an hour. I have 7 people coming this evening....
Big hugs for tonight
magie06
06-10-15, 06:32 PM
Best of luck for this evening. I'll say a prayer for you that everything will go smoothly.
Hope it went well lovely xx
Well got through it. Got two beginners and 5 improvers so a nice profitable group. I made more in that two hour pottery group than I make with both my home educators groups put together (4 hours). As soon as I can finish them up I will do so. There is far too much hassle for far too little money. With the adult group tonight they can do a lot themselves so I dont have to run around so much.
Glad it went well lovely..
Arrrggg still can't sleep!
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07-10-15, 12:55 AM
probably that nap earlier knocked you out of sync. Have you got anything to help you sleep?
I dont think I actually went to sleep in the day yesterday, I had a lie down for about half an hour but did not go off. I took a lorazapam last thing but it did not make the slightest difference I was still drawing at 1 this morning.
Two art classes today. Dont know what I will do with them but at least its adults.
(bear) How are you feeling today?
Nope, not happening. How's the art classes going?
First class in half an hour.
Did you get any sleep last night?
How did the first one go?
I got off to sleep about 1 I think.
I have just really struggled with the group this afternoon and feel really ill, so I have cancelled this evenings class. I really struggled to concentrate and although I think they enjoyed themselves I dont think they learnt as much as I could have taught them if I had been on better form.
Sounds sensible. Are you eating?
Yes, although whenever I do I just feel sick. I have no energy, cant concentrate. trying to decide if I can teach tomorrow.
Do the Lozazepam help when you feel like this?
No. I am not feeling anxious just dead.
What strategies can you use to help you through this? Are you still walking Ember? Does the exercise help at all? TBH I just want to jump on in and give you a huge hug!
No not been able to find enough energy to walk Ember. Hannah has just taken her out for a bit. I have been doing a of drawing, this time on paper! cant quite master zentangles so doing a mandala based zentangle. I was doing a zentangle christmas card but lost my way a bit with it.
I am ok whilst I am drawing but I dont know what I will do about tomorrows classes.
I lit the fire this afternoon and put on "the great escape" I have lost track of how often I have watched it but I it is a comfort film that I can have on the background without having to actually pay close attention to it.
Oh hunni (panda). Do you think taking the classes tomorrow will help distract you? Have you done any pottery for yourself?
I found the class I took this afternoon exhausting. I really struggled to keep my concentration and just felt sick and tired all through it so no dont think it would be a good distraction. It was why I cancelled this evenings class, I just could not deal with doing it for another couple of hours.
Just had a polite bust up with H. I as nicely as I could pointed out that it was a bit unfair that the only person who cleans the bathroom,stairs,landing,hall and kitchen was me, whilst also trying to run the business every hour god made, whilst she sits in her lounge almost all day watching tv and playing on the computer. She got into a rage and is currently blitzing the house by dumping everything in my room. Ember and I have fled to the park.
Well done for saying that to her! :)
Well done for telling her hunni, make sure she undumps things from your bed though x
I have cleared a passageway onto the sofa...
Well done, I'd have done exactly the same
OK knocked up a painting as a test for the evening group tonight. They will have to replicate the painting using as few different colours as possible. I am trying to think of a prize for who manages to find the right colours and uses the fewest options.
Now off to blow up some balloons ready for the kids to make bird feeders....
Well done lovely.. (panda)
Balloons were a disaster... Not doing that again!!
magie06
08-10-15, 06:14 PM
Sorry, but how do you make a bird feeder from a balloon?
Balloons were a disaster... Not doing that again!!
Oops, still it's all experience
I was going to ask how they went...
Maggie you use the balloon as a mould http://www.carantoc-art.co.uk/blog/
Not an experience I wish to repeat. Maybe next time I will use the balloons to make a papier mache mould that I can make the shapes round!
Using paper mache sounds like it could be a good idea
I think he looks lovely! But I can see how it'd be almost impossible!
He is also quite big even using the smallest balloons I could find. It is not impossible but takes a lot of determination to do it!
Really feel bad again this morning. When I cut back on the classes I start to feel better but as soon as I start to ramp them back to normal I start to get really down again.
How many have you got today?
Which suggests to me you're doing too many classes and not pacing properly. I know you're building your business, but you need to find the happy medium, even if that means talking to the job centre about low income support
I have just the one class today.
I have been considering the issue and I feel I need to drop the art classes and concentrate more on the ceramics, sculpture and multimedia groups. Trying to plan lessons on something that I dont feel I really have a lot of skill in is stressing me out. At least with ceramics there are a huge range of things that we can make from the practical to the artistic and generally once I have taught people the basics the biggest problem is stopping them getting too ambitious!
Having said that I have just taken on another group, this one will be for just one hour and will be doing all sorts of art stuff, from clay to painting. It is for recovering stroke victims.
I also plan to drop the classes where I am just not making the income, like the Home educators sessions. The HE art class I am going to scrap completely. The pottery HE group I will keep running for the next three weeks then the price will have to go up so that I get £5 an hour per head, and I will drop the length of the session down to an hour and a half. That is quite long enough for most of the kids anyway, especially the younger ones. With the art group I am getting an average of £10 an hour out of which I have to find the running costs of the building, costs of materials and pay myself as well. As I am then having to spend a couple of hours preparing for the class each week as well I think I am getting about £3 an hour for my time.
I do get working tax credits so this does help pay the bills, in fact with my DLA, working tax credits and the rent from H and A I can cover all the bills without running hardly any classes, but I know this will change in the new year so I dont want to rely on benefits.
That sounds sensible. I do think your mood dropped when you started doing too much, so hopefully all these plans will help. Hunni, you're doing great
magie06
09-10-15, 05:48 PM
I think you are just brilliant. Just take time out to rest and to have some me time.
I think you need to work through things as a balancing act. You are amazing and taking on the blind group and the stroke group. I think you need to start looking after you more....
Had a shock tonight.Hubby has a buyer for the house! At 9k more than the list price.
Yes sort of... Now the real fun begins of trying to find him and M a house they like...
Would they relocate nearer you?
M would not. He wants to keep the same doctor so I have to find a place with bus access to his doctors in a rural part of the UK where buses are almost non existent!
Hunni, why do you have to do it?
Because neither of them can use the internet!
Just been house hunting online and found the house I grew up in and hubby first met me has just come on the market. I have to say that it is completely altered since I moved away. Including the disappearance of a very big fish pond in the backyard (rofl) Its in his price range, it would certainly be a laugh if he ended up living back there...
Because neither of them can use the internet!
Ah fair enough. Would H help do you think?
I swear that if someone finds my hubby in a ditch with a kitchen knife in his back I may just possibly be to blame!!!
Him "So if I buy an empty house I can move my stuff in gradually"
Me "No. You have to move out of one and into another"
Him "but why cant I buy a new empty place and move in over a few weeks"
Me "Because once the people buying you house have given you the money you have to get out, that is what vacant possession means"
Him "buts that unreasonable, I cant possibly move all my stuff in one go like you did"
Me "Thats the way it works hun, they will want the keys when they give you the money, other wise you could go on living there indefinatly having taken their money"
Him "But I would not do that!"
Me "I know that, but people have done that in the past so this is how the system works"
Him "I might as well just chuck all my stuff in the tip. I dont have time to sort this all out"
Me "Well our friend Graham has said he will come and help with clearing anything that may have a value"
Him "I dont have time to meet with him, I am at work all day"
Me "Well stay over at the weekend and ask Graham if he can come, or maybe he could come over one evening"
Him "I have too much to do here (weston) at the weekends I cant stay over there"
Me "Well you are going to have to find some time to look at houses"
Him "I dont have time free to do that"
Me "talk to your boss about what is going on and I am sure he will give you some time"
Him " But we have just started building the new house and with his son Ed still not recovered after his back operation I am the right hand man"
Me......In my head PLEASE GO HOME..... nothing I say will be right and I am getting to close to screaming !!!!
Oh Pen, ummm.... I'm not sure what to say!! (panda)
That sounds so frustrating! Is there any way that you could get him to get some details of houses and make a short list? Could he/they move in with you?
He does not know what he wants! One minute he is saying he thinks it would be good for M to live in monmouth town, then he is saying that he does not want a semi or any neighbours close by and maybe Chepstow would be better. Then he is saying maybe a flat or a bungalow. The the next minute he is saying he wants somewhere with a real fire. Then he says he does not want a garden, then he sees somewhere with a nice garden and expresses interest in that! Then he says he does not want to live South Wales anymore but the next second is talking about how M is going to get to the doctors!
If it was not for M he would come and live here. As for M coming to live with me OVER MY DEAD BODY!!! I married hubby NOT his brother! There is NO way on this planet that he going to come and live here! Although I would never tell hubby I really dislike his brother, he smells and has a really juvenile sense of humour. The thought of him being around my house sitting in my lounge and expecting me to take over as his mother 24 hours a day makes me shudder!
oops, sorry! Didn't know things were like that!
magie06
11-10-15, 09:08 PM
What can you do to help?
Oh hunni, what a nightmare :(
Right so far this morning (on my day off) I have spent an hour sorting out paid advertising on google and facebook. Hopefully I will get some return for my outlay!
Now to get dressed and go down the town to do the banking.....
Erm, "DAY OFF"???? Put the business stuff away and do something for you!
I think that I find it almost impossible to completly walk away from the business....
I do plan to do some gardening today, it has been sadly neglected for the last month or so.
Hubby just rang to say he has had a better offer. £12K more than the last one!
Brilliant news on the offer hun, I get the not being able to walk away when your self employed, but do try and find some time for you without the work x
Few!
Potted out some of the bulbs and pansies that have been sitting around for weeks then H and I went down the town. Done the banking but also...
Waterstones, wh smith,wilkingsons, the works, Clinton cards,shoe zone and the health food shop. Now in Asda but I am so tired I am in the coffee shop whilst H does the shopping.
Still did treat myself to a few new books in the works including one on drawing zentangles so looking forward to getting home and doing some drawing. Meantime I am here reading one of my new novels.
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12-10-15, 04:37 PM
Wow! I could barely make it to the corner shop today so you've done great getting so much done. Sounds like you've earned that cuppa and enjoy ya book
I don't think poor Ember is going to get another walk today though I am absolutely knackered!
Wow, you've done masses! You don't really "do" pacing do you? ;)
No not really (think)
I am in heaven tonight though. Bought some new fluffy socks to wear in the house so have them on, have a real fire roaring away, just eaten my favourite meal (macaroni and cheese and chips!), have my favourite drink by my side (non aloholic), have NCIS on (although may change it for a different crime show in a mo as I have seen this one several times!) and have a new drawing technique to master.
Oh and I forgot mention the M & M's and chocolate covered peanuts and raisins that I have to nibble all evening...
Sounds heavenly ...... You sound calmer, lovely x
You have done a lot but also there is a lot in there that you have done for yourself aswell
Oh I am a lot better. Main problem now is not getting carried away with adding more courses back in. Working on Zentangle drawings because I think it would be really cool to run zentangle based classes (rofl) as well as just having fun doing them myself!
Sounds like you are spending an evening in the right way! It's lovely to hear you much more on an even keel lovely...
Been zentangling all evening and mastered 4 recognised patterns. However now I have a strained thumb... shame I could have carried on all night I was having so much fun. However back to work tomorrow. A kiln to empty, stuff to glaze and a class to run!
It's really nice to read this and hear you so happy :)
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13-10-15, 01:15 AM
You're sounding much better now than you were. Long may it continue.
You do sound much brighter!
Wish I did not have to work tonight. Feeling really tired.
Do you have time for a cat nap?
No. Whilst out with the dog I realised why I was so tired. Apart from a bowl of cereal and a croissant and a handful of peanut m&ms I have had nothing to eat all day.
Ah, remedy that quick then
Yes. Just put myself around a mushroom, onion and cheese omelette and two slices of cheese and onion bread.
Feeling a lot better now.
Glad your feeling better hun x
Brilliant that you've eaten hunni Hope the class went well lovely.
Yes it did. Love this evening course. Best payer I have, I make more on a Tuesday night than I make on Wednesday and Thursday together!
BTW. I have posted up photos of my zentangling on facebook but I dont think FB is feeding it out as only 12 people have been reached. Can you guys check if it has come up in your feeds?
I normally see your posts but didnt this time for some reason, it will be Facebook being its usual stupid self
It frustrates me that FB seem to pick and choose who out of my followers will get to see things and of course the only way to boost the post is to pay for it which in this case I dont want to do as it is not really an advert just an invitation for interested parties to come over for a coffee and an afternoon of drawing for no charge.
I wont pay to boost my posts either hun on my page
It came up on mine. If your likers set their notification of your posts to 'see first' or whatever it's called, it does help
BTW. I have posted up photos of my zentangling on facebook but I dont think FB is feeding it out as only 12 people have been reached. Can you guys check if it has come up in your feeds?
I can see them on your page but I don't think I saw this in my feed. Usually I see your posts in my feed.
Did you set yourself up as a business on facebook yesterday so you could create ads?
I have been a business on FB since about January. I have done a few ads but I did do a paid boost yesterday to try and recruit more people for my Tuesday afternoon group.
I wonder if doing a paid boost made it think it can get more money from you by not sharing your unpaid boosts as much?
How are you doing today, Pen?
Yes I wondered that Rose.
Just run the afternoon art class. Only three of the six came, but it was a laugh. Now got the evening art group at 7 tonight, that will be OK as well as they started making sculptures in clay last time they came so need to finish them off.
Feeling OK at the moment, although I think I will have a cup of tea and a slice of cake, take the dog out then settle down to some drawing for a little while before the next class.
You sound a lot better. I think cancelling the classes that weren't making you much money and were a headache to run was a good idea.
You are doing well hun! Apparently the key on FB is to tag your page and get others to share it through networking etc....
The second time I posted basically the same message it has gone to over 100 people. I just dont know...
Sleeping may be tricky tonight... Home educators pottery tomorrow morning with 8 kids (sweat).
Are you not enjoying that group?
Shall we just say that they are challenging!
I think tomorrow I will make autumn leaf bowls with them. Trouble is I only have 6 bowls I can use as moulds so may have to raid the kitchen cupboard!
magie06
14-10-15, 09:53 PM
Oh Pen, have a hug and try to relax. (panda)(panda)(panda)
It's late, find a way to switch off lovely - oo btw, am loving your pics you've posted on fb!
So tired tonight. I did think earlier that I would light the fire and curl up on the sofa, but now I am thinking PJ's, DVD in bed and drawing.
I was really struggling by the kids class this evening so I am really glad that the evening class tonight was cancelled. I did have a couple of people over to draw this afternoon thinking that it would be a nice social event, and it was, but I think I should have had the time to get some quiet space on my own. I dont seem to be able to cope with constant human interaction all day...
I'm the same, constant people is exhausting. You're right, please try to get some rest hunni
Constant company is exhausting! Especially if you are teaching/leading all day!
Interesting twist in the tale tonight. It seems that M may come over to live in Weston. I may just have to persuade him that not having a branch of the Yorkshire Building society in WSM is not a deal breaker.
That sounds like a plan hun x
Which means hubby will live with you?
yyyyeeeesss.... Not entirely sure how I feel about that but that is the plan...
Ugggg... Its Friday. Not looking forward to this weekend. Timetable:-
Saturday
10am One hour pottery Class
11:15 Desperate wash and change of clothes
11:20 Collect Dad and his GF
11:30 Meet the rest of the family (all 20 of them) at the resturant
1:00 Part with all my earnings for the week paying my share of the bill.
2:00 collapse in a darkened room and prepare for Sunday.
Sunday
12:45 Collect Dad and GF
1.00 Take to Helicopter museum and meet tour guide and walk round museum pushing Dad in a wheelchair
3.00 Take Dad up in helicopter
4.00 Collapse in darkened room.....
Just focus on that darkened room and you'll get through it ;). Honestly, Pen, you really don't do things by halves, do you? X
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16-10-15, 01:16 PM
I love the helicopter museum. I remember taking my eldest when he was younger.
The helicopter trip was meant to be last weekend but there was a technical problem and it was postponed to this week. Its a surprise and he knows nothing about it so I had to get hold of everyone and warn them not to pat him on the back and ask how it went!!
We enjoyed the helicopter museum too...
Hope it's not as stressful as it sounds love..
Just put up on Facebook the drawing that has been keeping me sane for the last few days (smirk)
Just saw it, its awesome! You inspired me to try one the other night... yeh, its actually way harder than I thought. Mine came out rubbish.
Arggg. Helicopter flight has been cancelled again!
I though that with it cancelled I might be able to do something just for me... wrong.
Walked dog (twice)
unloaded and reloaded the kiln
Spent several hours with hubby online house hunting.
Oh sweetheart (panda) Did you/he find anything possible?
Yes there are far more options available around here that would suit M quite well. I think he has decided that a bungalow maybe the best bet and there are 6 detached and semi detached bungalows that are quite close to us as well as the shops and doctors. He is going to go and discuss it with M. I have contacted the agents and asked them to send paper brochures that I can send over to them to have a look at. Hubby seems to be dis-attaching himself from the house slowly and is making plans for moving stuff over to this side of the river. I think he is growing to the idea of resettling here and seems to accepted that it is time for a new chapter in his families land and maybe even that he will be happier not having the stress of trying to keep the place up as he grows old and watching helplessly as it deteriorates.
Of course property hunting here will be much easier for both of us as we can look at places when hubby is here and he can then shortlist the ones he thinks M may like and then we can bring him over to do a viewing of the best ones.
That sounds like a good plan hun x
Got a new course starting tomorrow afternoon. Managed to get 3 people together paying top whack so it is going to be a profitable day. However at the moment I am feeling really down again. I am just so tired. However lots to get done so I will have to push myself.
On a lighter note, I have discussed before about how Hubby and eating out dont go together, well of course on Saturday we had this big family meal together there was about 19 people. At the end we split the bill so that Dad and his GF did not have to pay and it came to £18 a head including all drinks (and I think H had about 3 vodkas) and a tip which I thought was good. Hubby however could not stop grumbling about how expensive it was.
Once the course is done, rest. Anything else can wait, including paperwork
OO I hope they do move closer to you! That would make things easier for you a bit wouldn't it?
No classes today. Its my "day off" just been doing the accounts, then I when I have moved myself and got washed and dressed I have to pay the cash into the bank and pickup more clay and walk the dog. Then I need to fire the kiln, finish planting up my planters, tidy up the studio (upstairs and down), clean the house and glaze my work (including a certain nativity scene). Then I need to practise making Christmas decorations ready for next weeks class.
Then I need to sit down and write up my notes about lesson contents to remind me in the future what I have done.
OO I hope they do move closer to you! That would make things easier for you a bit wouldn't it?
It would make life so much easier for all of us.
You also need to find some time to REST!! It's a DAY OFF!
I'm so with Suzi, lovely. Please, please rest!
Re the restaurant post.... £18 a head sounds like a bargain!
Right, I have fired the kiln, done the accounts, taken two bookings, taken Ember to the pet shop to get a new hi vis jacket, done the banking, visited Dad, walked Ember in the park, gone to get clay (none in stock so will need to go on Thursday and hope I have enough in till then). cleared out two planters and planted up 14, dead headed the pansies and watered the garden.
I now feel dizzy, and you all will say "serves me right!!"
Get yourself food and drink and sit down!
Had a toasted bagel with cream cheese and a lie down for an hour. Guess I had better take Ember out now.
Had a toasted bagel with cream cheese and a lie down for an hour. Guess I had better take Ember out now.
Lol, I suppose that counts ;)
Well H is cooking dinner now. I have just lit the fire and intend to settle down to some drawing tonight.
Glad someone is looking after you!
Well she has cooked dinner, but all the washing up is mine. She did not get paid last week as she did not do anything in the studio. I had to do all the clearing up, washing tools and sweeping and washing the floor.
Did she just not bother or has she got/looking for another job?
Not bother. She was having bad period pains and had a new copy of The Sims so hardly left her sitting room all week.
That doesn't help you though and I can't see any other employers take that kind of behaviour..
I know, but she is 22 she has to take charge of her own life. If she does not work she does not get paid so sooner or later she will run out of cash! I am considering seeing if I can get a youngster to come and help me out. Someone willing to learn how to do pottery tasks such as glazing, mixing slips and making as well as the floor washing. I was thinking I could probably pay someone £25 a week to help out and if I took a kid for one hour a day after school (Tuesday - Friday) and two hours on Saturday I may be able to get someone more reliable!
That sounds like a good plan to me!
Maybe a good plan but I dont think I can do it. H is unhappy about me sacking her and wants to carry on doing the cleaning.
Yup still Tuesday.... It's fine if she's actually going to do it..
Pen, why isn't she looking for full time jobs? Or study?
Paula I have given up nagging. She lacks drive is basically the problem. She has ideas about what she will do but then they fizzle out as soon as she has to apply herself. She was going to make vegan scented candles and sell them, but she has not made any for weeks as she says that she needs to sort out the allergen labeling, but she has made no effort to do so. Last year she wanted to take an online course to train as a professional in the aquatic care market and even bought a laptop and was given £500 to do it by the carers organisation but that never happened. The laptop broke down after 2 months but she could not be bothered to take it back to the shop. It drives me NUTS but if I say anything she just gets upset and nothing changes so I have decided that she is an adult and its her life.
Yup, it is her life and she has to make the mistakes herself, but it must be so frustrating!
Well two courses done. They were very enjoyable but I am exhausted now. Two art classes tomorrow. Getting closer to the Thursday evening class that I am dreading...
Glad that you have had a good class hun x
Why do you dread the Thursday evening course?
Because its an intermediate to advanced art class and I just dont have the skills to teach it. I wanted it to be a club where everyone brings their own work and helps each other but they are all expecting a class. I am waiting for a friend of mine to come and see me to discuss taking it over but if she doesn't then I will have to end it I think.
Mind you at the moment I am feeling so crap I am thinking of ending everything.
I've seen some of your work and I'd definitely say you have the skills to teach it!
Not 2D work at that level. I am fine with my beginners groups as I don't feel that they expect a huge amount. They are just delighted to be able to have a go at various different types of art and materials. I have a couple of people who have discovered a love for a new medium because I gave them the opportunity to try it out in my class. But with the intermediate group they already know everything that I do and are expecting me to teach them something else.
If you said this was a pooling ideas workshop, not a teaching one, then talk to them about it - give them the option to not go
I have come up with an idea whilst I was walking Ember just now. I am going to ask them to find a photograph that they would like to recreate and then over the next few weeks set them the challenge of "painting" it with various mediums, pastels, acrylics, watercolours, inks, collage etc. A different medium each week. That should keep them occupied for a few weeks!
That sounds like a brilliant idea!
See, you can teach them :)
Sounds like a great idea hun x
Well my friend took the class tonight and we had a laugh. They were all up for what she had planned and we all got in a frightful mess. Pictures going up on Facebook shortly!
Awesome! Glad it's all sorted lovely!
Sounds like a lot of fun has been had x
It was. I love my job. But why first thing in the morning do I feel so low and suicidal?
Its always worse in the morning (for me anyway). That feeling of dread that a whole day stretches before you, a day to fill with fun and purpose. Do you have any classes today?
Yes but I am thinking I will have to cancel it. Firstly my friend who helps with this class is ill and secondly whilst I was out with the dog I fell headlong into the main road. Luckily the car that was coming had enough room to stop so nothing hit me, but my knees and elbows took the force of the blow and my right hand is throbbing and my left arm is almost useless. Nothing is broken, I am just very shook up. I have no idea why I fell, I can only assume I must have caught my toe on something as I started to cross the road. This is the second fall I have had this month, I fell on the decking a few weeks back when it was wet and slippery. I know that both these were accidents but I am now scared of falling again. :s
Did you cancel your class? Something like that is very frightening and you'll need to rest ((hugs))
I have tried to cancel it but there is one person I cant get hold of. I will let her come if she turns up, she is no bother and she can quietly glaze her frog and rabbit...
My MIL has decking and quite frankly is treacherous when it gets wet. I am sure they are both unrelated accidents. Unless you are feeling light-headed or dizzy?
I have spent most of the day in bed. When ever I stand up I feel dizzy and faint. Just cooked Ember and me dinner. She so wants me to take her out but I just cant face going out there. I have lit the fire and plan to spend the evening on the sofa. I rang hubby earlier and asked him to collect my meds on his way over tonight as I did not feel I was safe enough to drive the car up to the chemist.
Hunni, do you think you could see a dr?
I'm sure its just shock and I will be fine by the morning.
Is your arm still hurting? (bear)
I'm sure its just shock and I will be fine by the morning.
Is H around tonight?
Is your arm still hurting? (bear)
My shoulder is.. I think I have pulled a muscle.
Is H around tonight?
She has been out but has just got back.
Sweetie, if you're feeling rough, don't be stubborn, please ask for help (bear)
I think I will be fine by morning. I will have to be I have 2 kids groups!
How are you feeling this morning?
Oh Pen! I hate falling, it makes everything seem so scary. I hope you're feeling a bit better this morning. But if you're feeling dizzy and faint I really think you should think about seeing a Dr. Same with your arm if it still hurts?
Im ok this morning. A bit bruised and battered and sneezing is painful but otherwise I am fine.
magie06
24-10-15, 04:03 PM
Good luck with your classes today. I'll be thinking of you while you get through them.
(bear) I was worried so am glad you're ok, if a bit bruised
Classes went OK, although I was sort of hoping that no one would turn up for the 11:30, but it was fine as they had a load of stuff to glaze. My knees are turning interesting shades of green, blue and purple.(rofl)
Waiting for hubby to come home so I can cook his dinner... Do the clocks change tonight?
Clocks change, I'm hoping there was a hiccup with Back to the Future day and we'll be going back to 1985 ;)
Yup they go back tonight! An extra hour in bed! Hoorah!
So glad your classes went well lovely x
Well the weather here is clear and bright. Hopefully we will finally be able to get this helicopter thing for Dad done and out of the way!
Hope it goes ahead hun and that you all have fun x
Just back from my walk with Ember
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Now shall I tidy the studio or try and drum up more business for tomorrow (whilst trying not to lose it with the idiots who respond), or do some drawing. Trouble with the clocks changing is I still wake up at the old time and of course Ember still expects to get fed and walked at the old times so I was in the park at 9:30 this morning. It was great, missed the bulk of the dog walkers.
Just had another fall. I had a feeling that there would be 3. Hopefully that has broken the jinx.
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25-10-15, 11:20 AM
That really doesn't sound good. Have you spoken to the doctor about these falls?
That really doesn't sound good. Have you spoken to the doctor about these falls?
No. No point really. Hubby came in with three new pots for the garden, I got off the sofa in a hurry excited to see them, not realising that my foot was numb and when I went to stand on it it was not there and I fell over. (rofl)
Are you ok? Anymore bruises?
Twisted my ankle and added another bruise on my right knee. I am starting to look like a modern art work!
oh hun take it steady and easy right now x
:( try to rest up, lovely
Can't rest got to take dad to the helicopter museum for his tour and flight.
I hope he loves it, lovely
He had a great time. My friend who works there did us proud. Our guide was waiting outside to meet us, he gave us a great tour Dad loved it (at times I did get a little bored but all the same I did learn a lot), then we had a lovely cup of tea and cake in the cafe where I broke the news to him that he was going up in a helicopter. My friend turned up at that moment and escorted us to the field and found a chair for Dad and his GF to sit on and watch as we waited for his turn. He got to sit alongside the pilot and he had a headset so he could talk to the pilot and hear the commentry between the pilot and the ground. The only thing that was not great was that the flight was very short, but he and his GF (who was most reluctant to go) came off the helicopter beaming from ear to ear and they could not stop talking about it. We visited the gift shop and I bought him a model helicopter (he collects Die Cast models) and we got a model of a Vulcan Bomber which he also really wanted. I then took us all to Pizza Hut where we had some dinner.
He was DELIGHTED with his day as was his GF.
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magie06
25-10-15, 06:33 PM
Fantastic, sound like such a brilliant afternoon. Now go to bed.
Sounds like a wonderful day!
Only thing that spoiled it was that shortly after we arrived I got a migraine and could hardly see for the first hour.
I'm so glad that it was a successful day and your Dad and his GF had a good time, I hope that migraine cleared quickly hun, make sure you rest now x
I think I will go off to bed now, the migraine along with the fall and the trip has wiped me out and I have a class at 10 tomorrow. I have been advertising all day but I only have three people coming which is quite good really especially as two of them have been quite a bit before so I wont have to do too much really.
Hope it lifts really really soon lovely.
magie06
25-10-15, 09:13 PM
Night Pen. Take it easy and see you tomorrow.
Night hunni, and I hope you get rid of the migraine quickly
That one lifted then whilst I was teaching a kid how to make a minion today another one came on. I had to struggle on barely able to see but the two kids did not notice so that is fine.
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